Wednesday, December 30, 2009

The Bible in 2010

I listen to the one year Bible on line. It is a reading program that gets you through the whole Bible in 365 days. You can start it on any day, but why not begin on Jan 1? I have a small yahoo group you can join to read/ listen to the whole Bible in 2010. Faith comes by hearing the word of Go...

A good book

The kids are at winter camp (Philip, Thomas and Nicole). Juergen and I were going to take Sarah and Jessica up North to visit Juergens dad Richard. First Richard was very worried about the snow. We decided to postpone our trip until next week. Then the water pipes broke at Juergens dads house. The whole kitchen floor had to be ripped out. It's good we aren't there now. Richard is 80 something...and he is getting a little "autistic". He needs order. I'm thinking Juergen should go alone to visit Richard. I think the thought of our family visiting him is stressing Richard out. Having a clear routine and order is all he can manage. I think part of this maybe the heart medication they have him on. It thins his blood, but has a negative affect on his memory. Getting old is not for wimps! Richard is an amazing man. He can speak 5 languages. He is an extremely intelligent and gracious person. It must cause him a great deal of fear not to have his sharp mind working at 100%. But our children are very loud and chaotic. I think it would be wise for Juergen to visit Richard alone next time.

So anyway, we are at home. We have been racing around looking at bathroom furniture. We plan to renovate our bathroom. We wanted to begin that this week. We decided not to begin because it's pretty messy. We have a party here Thursday night, and visitors from out of town joining us for the weekend. But planning takes time, and we have made progress with the plans.
Juergen has been reading a novel to me. It's called "Son of Perdition" by Wendy Alec. It is her 3rd novel in a series called the Chronicles of brothers. It begins with The Fall of Lucifer, then the Messiah, and this book is about the rise of the anti Christ. It is very gripping. It is based partly on the Bible, and partly fantasy. Sort of like The Lord of the Rings. I think you can only get the first 2 books in the USA. Son of Perdition is available on Amazon in the UK or you can pre order it in the USA. I gave it to Juergen for Christmas. We have been staying up until 2am every night reading it. We have 100 more pages to go. I'm sure we will try to finish it tonight. In the day we take Jessica and Sarah out to lunch, swimming, and to jump in (a play park). It is a very relaxing time. We pick Philip, Thomas and Nicole up tomorrow. Sorry for my lack of blogging. I'm being pretty lazy while I have a chance.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas

We are having a good family Christmas. I hope you are too. Some friends of ours are facing a very dark period in their marriage. I hope they will consider watching this movie, and maybe dare to learn to love each other. Here is the first of 12 parts of the movie "fireproof". One of the greatest gifts on earth is a good marriage. It doesn't always come easy...some times you need to fight for it!

The German book is 40 Tage Liebe wagen, you can find it at

Juergen gave me a sonic toothbrush for Christmas. I really wanted one. My gums need some help. This toothbrush is fancy. It has 6 different heads. I have to read the book so I can figure out what do with all these different brush heads. And when you use this brush it's like nothing I have ever tried before. I totally love it. Thanks really bring a smile (a very white and healthy smile) to my face! Now if I can find this super cool toothpaste thingy.

Life is beautiful...just think, God gave us his son.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas

Juergen took the kids to church at 4pm. They saw a very good children's play about the Nativity, and forgetting Jesus at Christmas. I stayed home with Jessica and Philip (Philip is sick, and Jess hates crowds). After church we eat Mexican food. It turned out great if I do say so myself. Then we rolled dice to see who got to open the first gift. The highest got the first gift, lowest was last. That worked well. Everyone was pretty happy with their presents. I got a new Mp3 player for my car. I also got candles from the boys and a Susan Boylan CD. Nicole and I took Jessica out for a drive. She didn't seem very satisfied with her gifts. I told her I would take her shopping after Christmas. It's so hard to shop for Jessica. Everyone is playing Wii Resort. I'm going to call my parents. I got a small stack of drawings from the kids. I'll have to scan those for you later. I hope where ever you are tonight that you are blessed...and mostly that you do not forget Jesus.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

10 mins until the store closes

Juergen worked today. He has the rest of the year off. He called me and said he would be late. He is doing his Christmas shopping. Actually he is doing his shopping early. He generally waits until tomorrow (Christmas eve). The stores will be open tomorrow until noon. To be honest he is chasing a gift for Jessica. We want to build her a special light. It will be a bookshelf that holds 3 long tubes that have water and plastic fish. It's hard to explain. It looks like fish tanks with colored lights. Jessica wanted these fish lights. We tried to figure out a way to secure them to the wall so they will not fall. I had the idea of cutting holes in the top of a small book shelf. The lights could stand in the shelf, and you can screw the shelf to the wall. Does that make any sense? It's hard to explain. It's even harder to find something special for Jess. I think she will enjoy this. Juergen is having fun doing his annual Christmas shopping. I cleaned the house and cooked. I'm done with the shopping. I'm going to take a hot bath. Tomorrow I get to sleep in. My holiday has begun!


I can not find my corn husks (I had some I'm sure). Maybe Juergen tossed them? Any way I have to use my pork and chicken to make enchiladas instead. Maybe I can find banana leaves in a Asian cooking shop? There aren't many places (if any) you can buy real Mexican food supplies. It will probably be easier for me to buy banana leaves for my Tamales. I will find the right will happen! It just won't happen this Christmas!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

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Tamales Recipe

Tamales Recipe

Authentic Mexican Tamales
Mexican tamales (tamal is the Mexican "singular" use of the word) are packets of corn dough (masa) with a savory or sweet filling and typically wrapped in corn husks or banana leaves. The history of tamales dates back as early as 5000 BC. Popular varietes include fillings of pork, beef, green chili, chicken or beans.


* 5 lbs. lean pork or beef, cooked and shredded
* 6 to 7 lbs. fresh masa
* 1 1/2 lbs lard
* 1 tbls. salt
* 1 1/2 pts. red chili sauce
* 1 bundle oujas (corn shucks)


To make tamales, cook meat by boiling in a large covered pot with enough water to cover completely. Add salt to taste and slow boil till completely done. Cool meat and save broth. When meat has cooled, shred and mix in the chili sauce

Corn Shucks:
To prepare the corn shucks ( outer husks), soak them in a sink or large pot of warm water for about 2 hours or until soft. Gently separate without tearing.

(make masa by hand or with mixer) Mix the masa, lard , salt and enough broth to make a smooth paste. Beat till a small amount (1 tsp) will float in a cup of cool water. Spread masa (1/8 to 1/4 inch thick layer, or to preference) on ouja, add a small amount of meat and roll up. Fold up ends of ouja and place(fold down) on a rack in a pan deep enough to steam. Add 1 to 2 inches water, cover with a tight fitting lid and steam about 1 1/2 hours. (a cloth can be used under the lid to make a tighter fit)

Many variations of ingredients can be used in making tamales. You can use a combination of beef and pork, use chicken or even fried beans. One or two olives may be added to the center or try adding a few raisins.
This recipe will make 4 to 5 dozen tamales

Monday, December 21, 2009

Should We Teach Farming in Schools?

A high school chemistry teacher has an interesting open letter to his students in Energy Bulletin. He takes stock of a changing world, and makes some interesting predictions:

"Some of you will grow food. -- Probably a lot of you, actually. Even those of you who do other things as your main job. So you should probably start to learn how it’s done. Right now. Because it’s not something you can learn in a year – how to add fertility and prepare the soil, when to plant and harvest, how to store the harvest and save seeds, etc. There’s more to it than you think. And it’s gonna get even trickier when the climate starts its carbonic seizures – droughts, floods, heat, cold, and storms. In no particular pattern. So you better be good."

People still regard home farming as an elective "green" activity, but might it be a survival skill by the time current teenagers are adults. Should we start retooling home ec classes to start covering agricultural education?

I read this today. I've been thinking about teaching myself & my kids how to grow our own food. In fact, it's what I think of all the time.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

no to the farm house...

Juergen said no to the farm house. It had termites in the roof and would require an extra 50,000 Euros worth of work. It was too much! I'm sad because I loved the house. But I love Juergen more then any house. We have to agree on things like this. Buying it would not be very wise. I just have to believe we have not found what we are looking for. He promised me he would keep looking. I am blessed he is supporting my search. We make a good team, and this is very very important.

Friday, December 18, 2009

I watched big beautiful snowflakes fall slowly on my windshield tonight. I was driving the kids from point A to point B. Philip got out of the car and picked up the broom to sweep the walk way. I didn’t ask him to do it…he just did it. I thought wow, what a grown up thing to do. What a responsible and grown up thing to do! It’s nice to be taken by surprise in a good way now and then. When you have 2 sons with ADHD the surprises are generally negative. What a great surprise!

The Impressionists

I'm interested in the colors of the late 1800's because that's when the farm house was built. I watched this video of the Impressionists, I reminded me of my trip to Paris with my brother Rick.

It was a cave and it wasn't sweet. Jesus came to faithful and meek people who were hidden away in a strange place. But a star lead people great and small to witness his birth. They gave gifts that helped Jesus and his family live in Egypt for saved his life.

we see the house tomorrow

Well, we see the house (God willing) tomorrow afternoon. It will already be getting dark. I think we will need to bring our own lights so we can get a good look at the place. A friend that teaches house renovation at a school will be coming along. I praise God for the connection and insight he can give us. Chances are he will say it is too much work. The house was built in the same year Lincoln was killed (1865). Imagine! It needs new heat, new electric and new water. The top floor needs to be built...walls, insulation , heat etc. I know we haven't got the budget to do everything. For example it could use two new bathrooms. But the bathrooms work, and they really don't "have" to be done. It's just a cosmetic thing. I really want new stairs in the house. The stairs that are there are very steep and small. For safety I want new stairs. I can live with less then perfect. The question is, can we afford the important stuff...and how much time will it involve? I don't want to kill my husband with work. I really want this house. It's not easy for me to think...just think! And Juergen doesn’t have my imagination. He can not see this as anything but an old house. I see it as a beautiful place. It can imagine it finished. He sees only the work and cost…I can not blame him for being less then excited about it. I could never express how much I appreciate Juergen for looking into this just for me!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

for Christmas

no go

We couldn't get anywhere this morning because of the snow and ice. Jessica’s teacher couldn't get to school, we couldn't get into Heidelberg. Sarah had to stay home. We had appointments that had to be rescheduled. It makes me wonder, if just a little ice and snow can cause such a mess...what would we do in a real emergency? I didn't expect to be home today, but I'll try to make the most of it. Sadly, Juergen and I were going to go out to breakfast before we had our final meeting to become Jessica’s guardians. I guess we would have spent the morning talking about the farm house. Maybe it's better we just wait to talk...we need more information. We hope to see the place again on Saturday. This time we want to bring someone who understand major house renovation. Poor Juergen. I want the house allot...he dreads the work involved. I wish we didn't need to decide now. But just because it's hard doesn't automatically make it wrong. Something’s are really worth the effort. But just because its worth it to me, doesn’t mean it's worth it to Juergen. We have to be in agreement...and that's really the difficult point. I am so grateful he doesn't just say no...I know he wants to. I really appreciate his investigating it. I really value my husband. I do not make things easy for him. I'm always asking for crazy things. He didn't marry an easy person.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I was putting it off

Yesterday the realtor called and said the farm house I like the best needs to be sold. The women that owns it is in a Nursing home and her family needs to pay for her care. They want to drop the price. We need to decide soon. They will list the new price next week. It will probably sell fast. I think the price is very good now. Still, I had hoped to put off any decisions. It's Christmas. And renovation will be costly and time consuming. I didn't want to think about it just yet! We need wisdom about this. There are not many houses like this one...but the work is great. I would love to have the house, but I hate the work involved. We may very well say no. I hope we agree to say yes, but we really have to both agree. I think we will try to see the house again on Saturday. The realtor is going on vacation for 3 weeks. Perhaps we can tell him yes or no in January. I really wouldn't want to deal with this now, but our timing is not always Gods timing. Perhaps, as we look back on this will see the timing was perfect? Right now it just seems like poor timing! I’m glad they called us…and gave us a shot at the place. Still, the ball is in our court and I’m not sure what we should do!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

My Christmas letter, 2009

I have been receiving many Christmas letters this year. My friends are good writers. It’s amazing to me how they manage to capture a whole year in two or three pages. I thought about trying to do the same thing. I honestly think it’s impossible. There are 7 of us. Life is full, and I know you don’t have the time to read what we have been doing and thinking over the past year. Just read our blog. That will cover some of the high lights. For now, I thought I would just mention we are doing well. Juergen and I are still holding hands and walking in good unity after 19 years of marriage. I love my man! Juergen turned 50 years old in June. We got to celebrate the day with some good friends in Cyprus in a villa overlooking the sea. My brother Rick was the cook, and he blessed us all! Having Rick in Europe was totally great! I lost him in Paris...I'll never forget it! Jessica turned 18 years old. She still has autism. We had to go through a legal process to become her personal guardians. I have a hard time explaining why this was painful for me. I guess it has something to do with hopes and expectations. Know one hopes their first born child will be declared permanently disabled, and requiring full time care. We hope for independence, a bright future and promise. Jessica is as sweet as always. She is happy. The legal process we have been through does not change anything. It was upsetting to me, but it is finished. I am blessed with this extraordinary daughter that will live with us perhaps forever? Only God knows. Nicole is in her last two years of high school. She went on a missions trip, helps lead worship in her youth group, continues to be a great artist, and sword fights. Her challenge is what she will be when she grows up. Will she pursue art or science? Our challenge is to help guild and support her. I also think it’s a challenge to let her go. I’m not any good at it…letting go. I promise to try harder! Thomas is in the 5th class. He has mastered the Rubik cube. He has done many other things in 2009 but the Rubik cube is a good symbol to describe his amazing persistence. Once Thomas decides to do something, he will work at it until he has done it. I like this about him! He and Philip eat everything in the house. They are 11 and 12 years old and growing! So our food bills are high, and I am always buying new shoes. Philip is doing very well. Last year was pretty difficult for him. He hated school, and was angry and some what lost. But he has gotten over the ruff spot. He comes home and does his home work right away. We found a great speech therapist that also helps him with reading therapy. He has a long way to go…but he has found a good path. Is it great news to say you are no longer in a mud pit? I guess it is! Perhaps we will begin to see his potential realized? I have hope! And Sarah is in her final year of kindergarten. Her language is very delayed. She expresses allot of anger and frustration because she can not communicate well. But we also see progress in this area. Sarah has graduated from the baby pool to the deep water. She loves to swim. She can tie her own shoes and clean her own room. She is often lonely for a sibling closer to her own age. I often think we should adopt one more time. So far the right path hasn’t presented itself. We are not actively seeking to adopt again. But at least I am open to the idea, and I think Juergen is too.
We took trips to Holland (with My Parents), France and Cyprus(with my brother) and Thailand in 2009. I loved visiting with my family. I miss them always. We saw the tulips on the best weekend this spring. It was amazing! But Thailand was my favorite trip. I remember sitting on a roof top café on Dolphin Bay just south of Hua Hin Thailand. The kids could order anything and everything they wanted because the prices were so low. Philip eat 3 plates of shrimp. I looked over the bay and cried. It was so perfect and you long to hold on to what is perfect. You can only capture it in your memory. It was the best day of my year. My small little family far away from everything, together in paradise. Our daily lives are filled with homework, music lessons, shopping , sports and cleaning. But in my memory I hold this perfect day we laughed and played , went on adventures and build castles in the sand. We wish you progress in your life, Gods love and help, and a few sweet memories you will want to hold onto forever. Merry Christmas!

Have you seen this?

Monday, December 14, 2009

Pride & Prejudice

pride and prejudice Pictures, Images and Photos

how the days go by

A good friend stopped by for coffee this morning. She informed me Christmas is next week. Everyone in the house has an advent calendar...everyone but me. Where have the days gone? I'm certain we lost a week. Christmas is already next week! I have the packages all wrapped. I need to make a list to make sure I've got it all covered! I am feeling so mellow...are you certain its not summer time? I feel like taking a long nap on the beach. My body clock says its July...but the weather says its December. I wish I were in Thailand for Christmas! It gets dark at 4pm here. How can anyone feel correct when they have no sunshine? It's entirely too cold and dark. Naps are the only answer. Let's all sleep until spring!

Sunday, December 13, 2009


Anne (Sally Hawkins) fell deeply in love with handsome young naval officer Frederick Wentworth (Rupert Penry-Jones) at the age of nineteen. But with neither fortune nor rank to recommend him,

I just love a hot cup of tea and a good movie...

Saturday, December 12, 2009

The Shop Around the Corner 1940

Before "You've got mail" there was The shop around the corner. You can watch it in 10 parts on you tube.

a good day

It took me nearly 2 hours but I wrapped the Christmas gifts. I only need to pick up 2 more gifts and I'm done! I also had to wrap the trees and roses outside. It is suddenly getting cold. I don't want my fig tree our Japanese maple to get damaged. I cleaned up the garden and covered the furniture. We may even get snow tomorrow. I should sleep well tonight because I'm so tired!

Monday, December 07, 2009

understanding Jessica

Nicole is doing a talk on Autism in her Biology class tomorrow. This is a personal topic to all of us. I just told her about how Jessica would have the worst temper tantrums when she was 3 years old. I would carry Nicole on my back in a carrier, and Jess would be in the shopping cart. Juergen worked over time for a start up company in Irvine. He was gone all the time, I had no friends because we had moved from San Diego. I felt like I was drowning. Jess was so badly behaved people would say to each other (just loud enough for me to hear) some people shouldn’t have children!!! We had no idea why she had lost all her language skills, and became a wild raging animal. We went from expert to expert. This was 1994 and they were not calling it autism. They had no answers and no hope. I would cry all the time. But my tears would scare Nicole so I had to control my tears. When Nicole took a nap I would cry so hard I would get up off the floor and left a puddle of tears. It was the darkest time of my life. I lived so close to UCLA, I could have had her in ground breaking therapy. But they did not call it Autism. We did not hear Autism until she was 8 years old. I always wonder what could have been if…I waited to have her vaccinated…if we just knew we were dealing with Autism. But you can not go back. Now is all we have. Today I love her even if she is sick. God will make her whole some day. It’s a very big loss, but I’ve run out of tears. Anyway, I’m proud Nicole will be doing this talk tomorrow. She understands her sister better.

Biomass pellets in China

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Now isn't this a nice view

I found the most beautiful house for sale today. It cost way too much...but maybe we can talk them down on the price (way down)!

Monday, November 30, 2009

How to Make Flavored Sugar

Step 1

Measure one cup of white granulated sugar into a zip lock bag.

Step 2

Add one of the following to the sugar:
Zest of one (1) orange or two (2) limes/lemons
One (1) Vanilla Bean
1/4 Cup or small handful of well washed rose or lavender petals

Step 3

Seal zip lock bag, removing as much of the air from the bag as possible.
Set aside for five to seven days.

Step 4

After five to seven days, sift sugar to remove all traces of the added flavor.

Step 5

Storage in an air tight container and use in baking or your favorite drinks to
add flavor, spice and flair.

Collectible Christmas Tree Ornaments

Less then ideal

My feet hurt because I was shopping all morning. Christmas shopping. I needed to buy stuff for Nicole’s Advent calendar, and Sarah's Christmas gifts. I try to tackle a little bit of the shopping each week. Each of the kids is different and it takes allot of effort and thought to buy their Christmas gifts. I haven't got a clue what to get Juergen, but I'm sure he will buy something for him self. He always does!
Christmas can be stressful for me. I do the decorating, cooking, Advent calendars, and gifts. Juergen brings home the money (no minor thing), but he doesn't feel the weight of the kids expectations. I want it to be nice for them. The nice part for me is just drinking my coffee and listening to the kids play. And if I've done my job well, they are very excited and happy. I actually do not care if I get anything else. I have everything I need, everything I want (well except a farm house, and that will not fit under a tree).
I remember my childhood Christmas's. My brother always got the good stuff. He got the cool hot wheels, and the official NFL football and uniform. I got bathrobes and sweaters. But it was always wonderful for ideal time. Jesus was born in less then ideal circumstances. I can not imagine how hard it must have been for Mary to travel on a donkey when she was about to give birth. How awful to have no place to go, no room or hospital. The very best God has to give us comes in less then ideal circumstances. I thought I would mention this in case some of you are stressed out. I want gifts money can not buy. Joy and peace, good health and freedom do not come in a box. And I want my eyes to be open so I can appreciate how blessed I really am. I'm drinking my tea and thinking ...just thinking. The warm black tea taste so good. I think I’ll put on some Christmas music and just give myself a half hour to enjoy this season. I’m making it a goal to enjoy this holiday…not just survive it! Can you relate?

Sunday, November 29, 2009

eBay and Christmas

Today I put up my Royal Copenhagen Christmas plates. I also bid on another 5 plates that are listed on eBay. While I was at it I bid on some old Christmas ornaments (all 1950's glass tree ornaments). I would love to basically get rid of all my cheap stuff, and replace it with antiques. I think I'll pull all the Christmas stuff out and start sorting everything. I can take the boxes of extra stuff to the second hand store. I have allot of cheap Christmas stuff I bought for when the kids were very little. I think I can get rid of it now.

I remember when I was little, my Grandma Moreno had many nice miniatures that she put under her tree. I loved those…I wish I had them today! But you can find really cool stuff on German eBay. Last year I got an angle for my tree top. It has a porcelain face and gold paper wings. It was made for the Christmas market in Nuremberg in 1905.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Now this is the way to use your junk mail!

this is so can make your own pellets from grass clippings

Biomass pellets

This farm house I like needs a new heating system. I am looking at pellet heaters in combination with a little solar. Not only is it good for the environment, it makes us more energy independent. No, Juergen hasn’t said yes to the house…but he said we could find out what the renovation cost are. That’s what I’m doing.

Friday, November 27, 2009

A special Thanks giving for my sister Shelley!

My sister Shelley's daughter came for a surprise visit. I just love this video! How great! I wish I was there.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving

Juergen went into work late so he could have breakfast with me. He remembered it was thanks giving and he wanted to do something special for me. Clearly that man is at the top of my list of what I am thankful for! My kids are also on my list. Each one of them has grown emotionally, socially, spiritually and in knowledge. I am sorry I can not be with my family back home but so glad my parents and brother each traveled here to see us this year! It's been a very full year. So much life pressed into such a short amount of time!

I'm just finishing Sarah Palins book, Going Rogue. I liked her before the book, but I like her even more now. I especially like her support of disabled kids and their families. She really could just sit down and shut up, who needs the stress...but she is very special. I don't know if she will ever be our President, but she will have influence. Sarah's approval rating is up to 47% and Obamas rating is actually down to 46%...could be interesting!

The above photos are from a family night. Juergen played guitar while I painted with the kids. Thomas is trying to figure out how to work the rubik cube. He is getting pretty good at it.

We didn't eat turkey today but I did cook. I made some noodles with good olive oil, olives, feta cheese and onions and beef. It was pretty good. I'm sure my brother Rick would have loved it. I feel like Sarah Palin when I say, here is a shout out to my family in Oregon. Happy Thanks Giving! I wish I was there but I send you my love!!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

It's going to get ugly fast

Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad said Monday that the threat of a U.S. or Israeli military strike against Iran was no longer an issue because "they don't have the courage" to attack Iran.

I say, want to bet!

Monday, November 23, 2009

just another day

It's Thanksgiving week in the USA. I read the amazing and hard work my sister is doing in preparation for the big day. I wish I was going to be at her house! Here it's just one more day. Thomas has drum lessons and Nicole has sports so we will not even sit down and eat dinner together. Juergen will most likely drive the kids through the Big M, and I'll eat a bowl of cereal (sad). It's just not the same! I may make some turkey soup and a pumpkin pudding (a little of the traditional flavor with out the work). I wish I was with my family in America…I do miss being there!

The small house with the very big yard

I called about the house with the very big yard. I will try to see it, but I'm pretty sure the house is way too small.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

She made me feel so good!

A friend of mine has been spending time looking at houses on the internet for me. Today she called and told me about a house that's for sale in her area. That tells me she wants us to live near her...and I feel so loved! Knowone else is looking for houses for us (that I know of). The house she found looks way too small, but the yard has 7,500 m2. Let me see, that's almost 2 acers (unheard of space for Germany). I must see this mini farm. It has a winter garden and a barn. Maybe we could make it work. And if we get it, I'm going to grow every kind of fruit tree, and keep chickens and goats. I want to be a farmer!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Looking for the best fit

One thing I like about my husband is he lets me look for what is best. I want impossible and complicated stuff. It would be so easy to just say "Amy don't make waves". Our house is fine, and it is so much trouble to look for a better fit. I agree...but! I do not want to change the direction of our lives, I just want a bigger house (we moved in to our house with 3 kids and now we have 5). But more then the big house, I want the big yard. I want to grow my own food. I can not do this in my small yard. Juergen was just nominated to be an elder in our church. I'm proud of him. I know that if he is approved as an elder (the vote is next spring) he will do a great job. I'll try not to get him into too much trouble. I'm not looking at moving away. But Heidelberg is so expensive. A yard comes with a pretty big price tag. I found 2 more houses to look at. The one I like best is a 1978 house (I don't care for the style but it doesn't require massive renovation). In a perfect world I could afford a 200 year old house in down town Heidelberg with a extra big yard...and zero renovation. It is not going to happen! We don't have the time for an extreme home makeover (or the money). But this big house is not far from Heidelberg, it has a big yard and a view. I love the view! I asked to have the expose sent to me, and maybe I'll see the house next week. I feel like Nicole...don't be afraid to look for the best fit! I think it's important that my local friends know I don't want to move away from my life...I just want to have the resources to live my life fully. I’m not afraid…if God’s in it he will not hide his will. But I feel like a women that’s wearing size 10 jeans when she should be wearing size 14 jeans. I feel squeezed into my house. I’m getting rid of all kinds of stuff. I throw things away almost daily. But no matter how much I throw away the bottom line is my house is too small and I am holding my breath. We are 7 people with one bathroom. I can only grow a good salad in my garden, and I want more! I am sure I could be content with the small house but I feel pretty strongly about the need to grow my own food. So anyway, I am looking. I’m so glad Juergen is cool with that. Gods best has to do with all the rest. My “all the rest” is just so much more complicated then your average person. I know I will not find what I’m looking for…I need God to lead me there.

Ketchup is a helper

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Juergen is nominated as an elder in our church. He shared about himself tonight and took questions. I asked him about his stance on women in ministry (believe it or not a controversy in our church). I know it was not the time or place for that topic, I just wanted to see how diplomatic he could be. He's great! He has my vote.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

The look

Juergen and I took a look at a disabled workshop Jessica has been trying for the last 2 weeks. I thought the place was very well run. It was clean, friendly and very organized. The people help pack stuff (like small car parts). Jess hated it. She cried every day. We will just keep looking. They said she could stay one more year in school. I’m trusting we have that extra time to find the perfect place for her. I’m very impressed by the lovely people who spend their life caring for the disabled. They give them a job, and dignity.

Nicole is at the University with Juergen. I'm anxious to see how it goes. They have exchange programs for their students. One of the places she could go for her Masters degree is Thailand. They have a Masters degree in sustainable environments. Very cool! You do 2 semesters in Thailand and one semester in Germany. It only takes 3 years to get a bachelors degree…could be a plan!

Up date...
Juergen loved the school. Nicole liked it too but feels really confused about what she wants to do (a very big choice). I think she should just keep weighing her options...keep looking. She can choose this, but maybe it will be something else that she feels called to. She has 1 1/2 years before she graduates, and even then she does not need to know. The important thing now is information. Look, Look and Look. Line all that good information up and pray. At some point she will just know what is right. Knowledge is power. And Nicole, I know you read my blog…I am proud of you, and I’ll be just as proud of you if you draw pictures for veggie tales, or save Africa from starvation...or just stay home and raise great kids (just?). One may seem more important then the other, but the most important thing is doing what God wants…I love you! You have always been wise, and I know you will be wise now.

a friend sent me the 365 names of God...thank you Elke!

I Am
365 Names, Characteristics and Attributes of God

I AM the GOD who shows wonders
I AM the Lord and my voice is powerful and full of majesty
I AM GOD- nothing is too hard for me
I AM GOD who made all MY wonderful works to be remembered
I AM GOD and my Glory thunders
I AM the Spirit of knowledge and understanding…
I AM the Holy Spirit that moved upon the deep
I AM worthy of worship, glorious and incomparable
I AM GOD who makes himself known through visions
I AM dynamis power
I AM the giver of all revelation
I AM glorious and full of weighty splendour
I AM HE- that ascended to the Father
I AM the triune GOD of Israel
I AM GOD who performs signs
I AM GOD who speaks in night seasons
I AM the King of Glory
I AM HE who searches the mind and heart
I AM great and greatly to be praised
I AM YAH and Yahweh
I AM the creator of all true worship
I AM wisdom
I AM omniscient
I AM the Lord who stretches out the heavens
I AM GOD who speaks
I AM Jehovah Rava, your healer
I AM GOD who declares new things before they spring forth
I AM the answer of your tongue
I AM prophecy fulfilled- never early- never late
I AM GOD who gives you dreams
I AM above all who were thought to be Gods

I AM found in my appointed feasts
I AM the anointing oil
I AM the bright cloud that comes to you
I AM the Synagogue, Church, Tabernacle and Temple
I AM the living water of life
I AM the Shofar trumpet
I AM the fountain of Israel
I AM Israel’s living star
I AM the Passover
I AM the Ark of the Covenant
I AM the door
I AM the altar of the Tabernacle
I AM the bomb of Gilead
I AM the Rose of Sharon
I AM the tree of life
I AM the GOD of Bethel
I AM the Lily of the Valley
I AM GOD who…or assigned between you and ME
I AM the rainbow’s colour
I AM the rock, there is no other
I AM the Glory and the cloud of the Temple
I AM the bread of life
I AM your rock- full of living water
I AM the light of the world
I AM a consuming fire
I AM the North, your promoter
I AM the bright and morning star
I AM the light, luminous, glowing and radiant one

I AM GOD who is merciful
I AM favour and I grant favour to whom I choose
I AM GOD of the…
I AM the prince of peace prophesied by the prophet Isaiah
I AM GOD who restores your soul
I AM the friend of sinners
I AM GOD- I tempt no one
I AM the GOD of peace
I AM HE who weeps with those who weep
I AM HE who speaks from a position of mercy
I AM longsuffering
I AM my Spirit
I AM gracious
I AM the forgiver of all transgressions
I AM the Manna which came down from heaven
I AM the breath that gives you life
I AM HE who will not remember your sins
I AM the beloved in the Song of Songs
I AM GOD who stretches out his hand
I AM the liberty you see through my Spirit
I AM ever faithful
I AM GOD in the midst of your land
I AM the forgiver of inequity
I AM abundant in mercy
I AM the altar of peace for your fear
I AM the Lord who makes wise the simple
I AM GOD who is daily full of new mercy
I AM GOD who comforts you
I AM GOD of the poor and stranger
I AM gentle and lowly in heart
I AM GOD who exercises love and kindness

I AM the Christ
I AM the cup of the blood
I AM the eternal sacrifice
I AM the blood that cleanses you from sin
I AM the crucified Messiah of Calvary
I AM your righteousness
I AM the Yom Kippur offering to expediate all sins
I AM worthy to open and read the scroll
I AM Noah’s Arch in a world still filled with sin
I AM the wine and the bread
I AM alive forever more
I AM the sprinkled blood of the lamb on the door-post of Israel
I AM the door to the Father
I AM the Lord who rescues those with a contrite spirit
I AM GOD’s Son sent to be seen face to face
I AM He that left heaven for you
I AM your sanctification
I AM the blood that tumbled
I AM GOD’s only Son
I AM eternally blind to what I’ve forgiven
I AM the bread of life broken for you
I AM HE who blots out your transgressions
I AM supplication
I AM the pierced Messiah
I AM the keeper of the keys to Hades and death
I AM the GOD of your salvation
I AM the Lamb that was slain
I AM the Father, Son and Holy Spirit
I AM outside the camp- come to ME
I AM the way, the truth and the life

I AM the righteous judge of all creation
I AM the King of Kings
I AM with the generation of the righteous
I AM GOD- My statute rejoice the heart
I AM the ONE who makes unbreakable covenants with men
I AM Holy, Pure and Undefiled
I AM GOD: beside to ME there is no God
I AM GOD by which all actions are weighted
I AM GOD- My testimony is sure
I AM GOD-My commandments enlightened the eyes
I AM the witness on your behalf
I AM righteous- kings humble themselves before ME
I AM GOD whose eyelids test the sons of men
I AM the Spirit of wisdom
I AM my ordinances
I AM the divine judge of all things
I AM the law
I AM MY statute- walk in them
I AM judge of the living and the dead
I AM the Spirit of the fear of the Lord
I AM righteous
I AM perfect knowledge
I AM before whom every tongue will confess
I AM the Lord who loves righteousness
I AM the unbiased impartial judge
I AM the Lord and my judgements are righteous altogether
I AM HE who sent Moses to deliver Israel
I AM GOD and no one can reverse MY axe
I AM to be feared above all Gods
I AM GOD who refines you
I AM MY judgements
I AM the Lord who heals you

I AM returning
I AM GOD and I want you to believe in ME
I AM HE who places your tears in MY bottle, in MY book
I AM GOD who shows you things to come
I AM the seven Spirits and they are ME
I AM the Lord- the fear of ME is a fountain of life
I AM GOD- MY secrets are with those who fear me
I AM life’s guarantor of joy and help
I AM GOD who will be found by those, who seek ME with all their heart & soul
I AM and you shall know MY names
I AM He who leads you in the paths of righteousness
I AM the architect of the last days
I AM the soul key giver of heaven
I AM the GOD who hears
I AM the Lord who hears those who speak about MY Name
I AM GOD who leads you to prophecy
I AM the soon coming king
I AM the Lord I do not change
I AM always with you- wherever you are
I AM GOD who speaks through dreams
I AM GOD who reveals HIS form
I AM the healing you seek
I AM the Saviour who would descent on the Mount of Olives
I AM GOD who gives you visions
I AM GOD of those who are growing old
I AM coming quickly
I AM the ONE coming on the white horse
I AM the soon rending of the heavens
I AM the precision of MY scripture
I AM waiting for you

I AM your shepherd, you shall not want
I AM the rod that chastises and brings you comfort
I AM in the desert wilderness to be tender with you
I AM near to those who have a broken heart
I AM your confidence
I AM compassion
I AM in the Father
I AM with you and will keep you wherever you go
I AM the refuge of the poor
I AM your Father
I AM GOD in the stillness
I AM the Lord- he who is joined with ME is one spirit with ME
I AM the Spirit of counsel
I AM your provider
I AM tenderness
I AM the true shepherd
I AM the dispeller of all fear and doubt
I AM interceding for you right now
I AM love
I AM the stab that retrieves you
I AM man’s friend who sticks closer than a brother
I AM the shepherd rod
I AM GOD who is with you in the valley of the shadow and death
I AM there with you
I AM GOD who strengthens you
I AM the candle lighting your path
I AM the Lord; precious in MY sight is the depth of all my sense
I AM the counsellor, mighty GOD, everlasting Father
I AM your peace and calm
I AM HE who wipes away your tears
I AM the saving refuge of MY anointed

I Am the Lord GOD of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob
I AM the Holy Spirit who hovered over the chaos of this earth
I AM the light of Genesis that was before light was
I AM the sacred Shmah of the ancients
I AM the Holy ONE of Israel
I AM the One whose ways are perfect
I AM God- the fear of ME is clean enduring forever
I AM the Holy of the Holies
I AM the GOD of knowledge
I AM the Lord sitting on HIS throne
I AM GOD who formed the earth to be inhabited
I AM understanding
I AM GOD who was joined to the unique
I AM the GOD of all the holy prophets in scripture
I AM GOD who divided the sea
I AM the Lord of the dance
I AM the Lord
I AM the guiding star at JESUS’ birth
I AM GOD who turned water into wine
I AM HE of whom all the prophets were told
I AM the root of the offspring of David
I AM GOD who leads you into all truth
I AM GOD whose rainbow’s MY everlasting covenant with you
I AM the root of Jesse
I AM the GOD of Jerusalem wherein is MY Name
I AM the creator of Israel
I AM the GOD who divided the waters
I AM the fountain of the house of David
I AM GOD who shuts up the heavens
I AM GOD who turned water into blood
I AM married to Israel

I AM your exceedingly great reward
I AM the Lord- taste and see that I AM GOOD
I AM both: the giver and the gifts
I AM the preparer of your place in heaven
I AM able to give you much more than this
I AM the one source of all true wealth
I AM the spirit of liberty
I AM HE who anoints your head with oil
I AM the bridegroom returning for MY bride
I AM the Lord who looks on those who tremble at MY word
I AM GOD who prepares a table for you in the presence of your enemies
I AM in the midst of two or three gathered in MY Name
I AM GOD who will answer you
I AM the glory who conceals a matter for a king to search out
I AM the fountain of gardens
I AM the resurrection of MY beloved
I AM GOD- whose throne is in heaven
I AM from above
I AM the Lord whose countenance beholds the upright
I AM the just reward of all who seek ME
I AM GOD who teaches you to prophet
I AM the giver of abound life
I AM more than you can ask or think
I AM sitting at the right hand of the Father
I AM the maker of many….therein
I AM the Sabbath rest
I AM the inheritance of the Levi
I AM the fountain of life
I AM the giver of great wisdom
I AM the Holy Spirit that hovers over your life to bring higher order

I AM the battle standard
I AM your sharp two-edge sword
I AM your battle cry
I AM a warrior and MY kingdom is spread by force
I AM the Lord mighty in battle
I AM the one who annialates Satan’s plans
I AM the spirit of might
I AM the master planner of all nations and kingdoms
I AM HE who leads you for MY great Name’s sake
I AM the conqueror of death, hell and the grave
I AM both: warrior and poet
I AM the supreme GOD, deliverer and possessor
I AM the Lord of hosts
I AM the kingdom, the power and the glory
I AM GOD who cast out nations before you
I AM commander and chief of all heavens armies
I AM HE who drives out the wicked before you
I AM the defender of those who believe in ME
I AM your strength
I AM the lamb sitting on the throne
I AM your victorious banner
I AM the fullness of greatness, power, glory, victory, and majesty
I AM GOD almighty and infinite in strength
I AM your mighty shield
I AM the lion of the tribe of Judah
I AM the sword of the Spirit
I AM your high tower
I AM the defender of Israel
I AM your fortress
I AM omnipotent
I AM the enemy of the enemies of Israel

I AM I never change
I AM the first and the last
I AM one
I AM meant the builder of faith through the ages
I AM the ruler of both: the night and the day
I AM the uncaused eternal self-existent wonder
I AM king forever and ever
I AM Spirit
I AM the Alpha and the Omega
I AM GOD whose eyes behold
I AM the same every day
I AM the word of life called the Bible
I AM the cornerstone
I AM the resurrection and the life
I AM not of this world
I AM GOD who knows all MY works through eternity
I AM omnipresent
I AM the One who simultaneously sees to beginning and end
I AM GOD ready to perform MY word through eternity
I AM three in one- equal and eternal
I AM before the day was
I AM all MY Names
I AM the self-sufficient, self-sustaining, self-creating One
I AM GOD, there is no other
I AM the word which was in the beginning
I AM the rock of ages on which you stand
I AM HE who was, is, and is to come
I AM who I AM
I AM the everlasting GOD
I AM HE who inhabits eternity

I AM the Lord- the fear of ME is the beginning of wisdom
I AM the GOD of multiplication and reproduction
I AM Jehovah- that is MY Name
I AM the GOD of the Seraphim
I AM the GOD of all flesh
I AM the vine
I AM the artist that all artisans draw from
I AM Adonai Elohenu- there is none other
I AM the GOD of the Cherubim
I AM the foundation of the world
I AM invisible: yet all creation speaks of ME
I AM GOD- I want you to understand and know ME
I AM and you are MY witnesses
I AM glorified in you
I AM GOD who made you a sign to the unbeliever
I AM more than all structures of steel, water and clay
I AM jealous over you
I AM the exalted head over all
I AM GOD who is drawn to the foreigner
I AM GOD who speaks face to face
I AM the sovereign ruler of all creation
I AM your next breath
I AM the light of the world
I AM GOD and all that is in heaven and in earth is MINE
I AM Immanuel- GOD dwelling among men
I AM high and lifted up by all creation
I AM the outpoured Spirit on all flesh
I AM HE who rejoices with those who rejoice
I AM the only Creator of the all that exists
I AM saviour of both: the gentiles and the Jews
I AM HE before whom every knee will bow

So Holy


Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Tomorrow Juergen is taking the day off to visit the University of Hohenheim. This is a 200 year old Agricultural Science school near Stuttgart (just an hour south of us). University is almost free in Germany. In fact, because we have 5 kids I think it is free (all the way through a PhD). Hohenheim is the best University in Germany for Agricultural Science. It is also a very family friendly school. If Nicole gets married and has kids, the University does provide good services to support her and her family so she can continue to study. She is still very interested in studying in America. She has not decided if she wants to be an artist, or a plant scientist. Juergen and I want her near us...but we will support her either way. I must admit I'm glad Juergen could take the day off to take her. All the kids in her class get tomorrow off to look at schools. She was going to look at an art school in Stuttgart (taking the train) but it wasn't anything she was excited about. I called Juergen and asked him if he couldn't take her to this school in Hohenhiem instead. I'm sure my parents will not be happy if she decides to stay in Germany, but I'm sure they can understand why I'm not anxious to let go of my girl so soon. I’m sure she will find a good way for herself. I hope it’s near home…but either way I’m sure it will be very good.

UN food summit

I noticed there is an UN food summit in Rome this week. They are already saying they don’t expect much progress (sad). There is a world wide food crises. It is only expected to be made worse by a growing population. The population is expected to grow another 2 billion by 2050 (only 40 years away). I am always watching trends in poverty. Millions of children become orphans because of poverty. Child labor, and prostitution is driven by poverty. Birth parents are not generally cruel when they abandon their children, they are desperate and starving. I am also lobbying Juergen to buy me a farm house with a big garden. I want to be able to grow my own food. I think every grassy place in America could be pulled up and replaced with an organic vegetable garden. Imagine the impact we could have on this world if we could teach the poor to grow their own food? The answer is not to give a fish, it is to teach them to fish (or garden). But we do not know how to feed our selves. When hunger comes we are as dependent as everyone else. Already 17 million Americans struggle with hunger. How can this be? Good land lays empty, un used while children are hungry. How can we be so backwards? Americans feed their cars grain while children around the world starve. How can we be so backwards?

Monday, November 16, 2009

I am

I'm listening to a worship CD called I Am, 365 names of God by John Paul Jackson. I got it on I tunes as a down load. It's just music, and the names of God . Very cool. He just read "I am comming quickly"!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

we got the right man...

Mexican pumpkin soup

I made a Mexican pumpkin soup today. I used a butternut squash, 2 onions, 6 potato’s, non dairy cream, a little vegetable bullion and 2 table spoons taco spices. Oh and a can of pinto beans. It was great, and will be even better tomorrow! I just made it up myself. I don’t generally use recipes.

you chop the veggies together, boil them in lots of water, mash them with a hand mixer and then add the beans, and other stuff. It makes a warm and filling soup. It is totally vegetarian. I was tired of pumpkin soup with curry.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Cheap and Easy Worm Bin!

HERE is how to build your own Cheap and Easy Worm Bin!

Worms LOVE
Breads & Grains
Coffee grounds & filter
Tea bags

Worms HATE
Dairy Products

easy raised beds

I saw this cool idea. You take a heavy plastic and put it together in almost any form to make a raised garden bed. Add polls on the corners to make it stable. That's it!

getting my garden ready for winter

I have raised garden beds. I clean the beds out, putting the old plants in my compost pile. I could just leave the beds until spring, but I want to do more. I decided to buy some horse and chicken manure on eBay. They send it in large 5 kilo plastic buckets and it only cost 1 Euro, + 4 Euro for postage. I will spread the manure over my beds, add a thin layer of leaves, and maybe even some torn up news paper. Then I will place a black plastic tarp over the bed, with some holes in it for water to get in. I'll let this compost over winter. In the spring I'll mix the compost into my soil and hopefully be ready to plant. Horse manure is good because it has allot of straw in it. Chicken manure is pretty strong (I’ve read). I don’t want to over use it. Never put manure directly on plants because it will burn them. I’m hoping the combination of manure, leaves, and newspaper will attract worms to my raised beds. Worms break up soil, and worm castings make the best plant food. Anyway, this is the plan. I ordered the manure today. Sometime next week (God willing) I should be able to get my small garden ready for winter. The black plastic warms the soil, and I may even get to plant early next spring. It also keeps weed seeds from growing. I only know this from books...I'm trying this for the first time. I'll let you know if it works!

a worm idea

Monday, November 09, 2009

all things are possible

I remember the time well. I sat glued to my TV. I lived in San Diego. I had spent the summer in Germany and we never thought it possible. Never! But the wall fell! And 3 days before Juergen and I were married Germany became united. I cry looking at this video. I remember praying for this. It still amazes me. Jessica’s kindergarten teacher was one of the people who left everything to sneak out of East Germany. She left her children and family…everything. She went to Cuba on a vacation. Instead of returning home, she went to Florida and asked for asylum. She lost everything for freedom. I’m so glad Germany is now whole, and Germans are now free.

Sunday, November 08, 2009

orphan sunday

Every Sunday is orphan Sunday at our house. And every Sunday is good! If you open your heart to orphans you will be changed forever. I always say, some people hope their life counts, I know my life does. I have changed the whole world because I been blessed by adoption.


Yesterday when we got the note from the Dr saying they mis read Philips MRI, and that he still has a tumor I was sad, but more angry. Anyone can make a mistake, but you shouldn't read about it 3 months later in a note. They should tell you in person, don't you think? To be honest, I was happy but confused when they told Juergen the tumor was gone. I felt numb, not over joyed. Back in March I wrote this on my face book,

"Last night I was watching TV. Out of the blue (because I was not thinking about Philip) I physically felt like someone was pulling a cotton ball sized white tumor from my left nostril. I felt it only on the left side of my nose. It was so weird because I really felt it. Then I thought immediately that Philip has a tumor the size of a small cotton ball near his pituitary gland, and they will pull it out of the left side of his nose. I guess we will see if this was a word from God? "

I'm not worried about Philip. I'm sad the tumor is still there, I'm angry the Dr did not tell us to our faces, but I am pretty sure it will be OK.

Saturday, November 07, 2009


We went to see an old farm house that's for sale. It needs too much work. We will check with the heaters guys, the plumbers etc... but I think it's too much for us (too much time and too much money). I enjoyed looking. I'm happy Juergen is open to the idea of a move. If you are our local friend, don't worry. We are only looking at places that would allow us to basically keep our lives. We want to go to the same church and keep most (not all) of our kids in the same schools. I made a slide show of the old house. I love the garden. But I'm 95% sure we will not buy this one.

I learned one of my nieces is expecting a baby, and another niece just lost her baby. I'm so happy for the one, and very sad for the other. How very sad! Both my sisters have lost grandchildren. This breaks my heart. I cried for you...and I am so sorry for your loss.

We just got a report from Philips Dr today. They had told us his tumor was gone. Well, it's not gone. It is still there. I guess they just read the MRI wrong. So we have to check it again. The big problem is we got braces put on his teeth. It's been a mixed news kind of day. I still believe it's an easy tumor to remove. It's on his pituitary gland (Hypophyse). I'm sorry it's still there but I'm going to hold on to the peace God gives.

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Feeling stupid

I’ve lived in Germany for 14 years but my German is not really very good. My Uncle use to call me dumb because my language was so delayed in English. I couldn’t speak very well at the age of four years. I know I’m not dumb…at least in English. This week I had to speak extensively with a teacher, a doctor, a pastor, a speech therapist and a lawyer . I can understand maybe 85 % of what is said in normal conversation, but with the lawyer I could only comprehend 10% of what he said. We are trying to gain permeate custody of Jessica our 18 year old autistic daughter. I had to ask Juergen what the man said. He gave me a lecture on needing to learn German. Thank you Juergen. I try, but it does not come easy to me. I cried today because I felt so tired and so stupid. Sometimes raising 5 kids with special needs can just wear you out. Jessica has been home all week because her teacher is sick. I’m very tired, very tired! But added to that is how small I feel when I have to do it all in German. Maybe it would be just as hard in America? At least I wouldn’t feel so intimidated. Germans can make you feel so small.

sounds like Obama

This is from ABC's new show "V". Some very cool visitors from another world come to earth. They capture the hearts and trust of the people who blindly give them loyalty.

HERE is the web site. It looks pretty cool. I think I can see it online.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

time to pack shoe boxes

It's time for Operation Christmas Child shoe boxes. This year Nicole is working with a group of kids at her school to collect shoe boxes. We packed 4 boxes last night. They are hoping to collect 100's of boxes for needy kids around the world. How about making this an annual tradition. It's just one easy way to teach your kids how to give. And it is the only gift many children will receive...but they receive it with love. HERE is more information. Time is running out, so don't delay!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

one world government

Lord Christopher Monckton, the former advisor for science policy to Lady Margaret Thatcher, believes that if the U.S. signs any climate treaty coming out of the Copenhagen climate change conference in December, it could subject the United States to a global dictatorship. Monckton explains his concerns.

Christopher Monckton"[T]his treaty of Copenhagen, which is going to be negotiated by the states' parties to the United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change in December, is going to...establish for the first time in human history a global government," he warns.

Monckton contends that the word "government" appears twice in paragraph 38 of the draft, and that paragraphs 36 through 38 explain that the purpose of the treaty is to establish a world government. "Whose job," he explains, "will be to transfer wealth from the wealthy countries, such as the United States most of all, to Third World countries -- and the excuse for this transfer of wealth is so-called 'reparation.'"

Abortion Funding Could Stop Health Care Bill

Planned Parenthood Director Quits After Seeing Abortion

expensive Christmas ideas

My sister Shelley wrote about inexpensive Christmas ideas. I thought I would write about what money could buy! $60,000 will buy you a life sized replica of your favorite person made out of Lego. Imagine the joy on your Childs face on Christmas morning when they see the perfect copy of themselves in Lego. Imagine your face when your child takes the Lego person apart to make something new!!!

For $500,000 you can get your own Dallas Cowboys End zone. You will of course need a big yard to put that in. Tiffany’s has a really nice blue diamond brooch for $100,000. Sarah loves the color blue! Or maybe you could stick to the classics.

For example this 1972 Ferrari 365 GTB/4 Daytona sells for $275,000.

And for just over 14 million you can have this lovely home in victoria BC. Ah, the simple life! I just love Christmas shopping!

Monday, November 02, 2009

The one year Bible

2009 is almost over and I'm setting some goals for 2010. One of my goals is to read the whole Bible using the One Year Bible plan (about 15 mins per day). You can even listen to the reading schedule on line. I did that with my daughter Nicole last year. I formed a yahoo group and I invite you to join it. Hopefully we can comment on what we have read, and pray for each other. Here is the address...

I will post a few details about the one year Bible, but the plan gets started on Jan 1, 2010. If you have never read the whole Bible in one year, or if you want to do this in a group please feel free to sign up. I have to approve members, and your comments will not be open to the public. I will invite my friends to join this group again towards the end of the year…but why wait.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

the gift

This morning The kids and Juergen gave me a very nice birthday breakfast. I also got the nicest gifts. The boys spent their own money to buy me a dancing turtle. I'll take some video of it. Nicole made me a box that looks just like my dad. Juergen gave me a gift certificate to a garden center (what I had asked for), and Sarah gave me her wooden shoes planted with flowers. Nicole came back from her missions trip sick. So she also gave me the flu. Oh well!!! I am pretty sure it isn't the H1N1 type.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

bless the little monsters!

I'm charging the camera batteries. I hope to get a photo of the kids. Their costumes were nothing all that special. I painted Sarah's face like Lion, Thomas dressed like a secret agent with the head phone and dark glasses, and Philip wore a Darth Vader mask. I spent an hour raking up leaves in my front yard, and lighting the path with a dozen or more candles. Juergen said our house looked the most welcoming on the block. I wanted that. Juergen took the kids trick or treating. Most people never bothered to open the door. SAD!!! I light my path so the kids would know they were welcome here. I made sure we had loads of candy. I didn't want to run out. But now my head hurts from the cold air and the dog barking. The kids are now answering the door. Happy Halloween everyone. Even if you don't like monsters, bless the children that come your way.

Friday, October 30, 2009

hallowees gone by

Here are some photos of the kids on halloween in years gone by. We have to come up with some ideas for this year. I am so not ready!

BTW. Nicole was only 1 years and 3 months old and Jessica was 3 in this photo.

hot idea


If you have your own food, you don't rely on government, food prices or hyper inflation. Are these guys crazy? The Bible says they aren't! You need 3 years of food stored, and space and experience growing a garden, and storing food. Do you know how to can food? Do you know how to make compost? Do you have the ability to harvest and store water? Do you know how to keep animals like chickens and rabbits (not just for meat and eggs but for the murmur). Did you know good compost needs animal manure? All this sort of stuff takes time to learn. I am only just beginning to learn how to survive a very uncertain future. I hope I never ever need to use these skills! I hope I just end up growing a 100% organic garden. That in it's self is a very cool hobby! But what if I need to know how to grow food to survive? What if I don't need these skills, but someday my kids do? I've spent the last hour watching you tube videos by survivalists. Man, some of these folks are crazy! They are paranoid crazy people!!! They hide their location, and carry guns. They prepare for war. They maybe right, but I don't want to ever live like that!!! I want to find a middle ground. Still, you can learn allot of good stuff from a hard core survivalist. For example, I learned that corn requires too much water, fertilizer and space to be considered a good survivalist crop. You are much wiser to grow beans that can be stored, and squash that is highly productive. I learned manure should not be placed directly on plants because it can burn them. You need to mix manure from chickens and rabbits into your compost pile and allow it to rest. I've personally never canned vegetables. This is a skill I want to learn next year. I don't know how to harvest seeds or store seeds. I hope my life and the life of my family never depend on my gardening skills. At least right now that would not be a very good thing!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

old farm house

This video is about the old German farm house. It had room for pigs, chickens and a very large garden. Today I went to see an old German farm house (built in the 1800's). It has a chicken coop and pig pins and rabbit pins. There is even a very large wine cellar. It needs some work but I love it. You can walk to the S-ban station in 5 minutes (that's the fast train). The kids could be in Heidelberg in only 15 minutes. The neighborhood is very nice, much nicer then ours. I have a half dozen friends in the area. I have to take Juergen to see the place next week. I just don't know if we can sell our house, or afford the renovations. It's not a very big house...but big enough. The garden is huge. The storage space is also huge (2 barns). You could do so much with this place (if you had the time and money). I don't have many photos. The battery was dead on my camera. The kids loved it! Sarah is ready to keep rabbits (but they kept rabbits for food on a farm , not for pets). The neighbors have a giant trampoline and swings and a sandbox in their yard. I guess kids live next door. That's a very good sign. The grave yard is directly behind the house. It is very quite and peaceful. I totally love the place!

surviving autism

There were two enemies pulling me down yesterday. One is called the past, the other goes by the name future. The Dr asked us about all of Jessica’s past diagnosis and treatment. That's almost two decades of struggle. These are not mountains I have climbed...and battles I have won. I am still fighting, and still climb. I will most likely fight and climb my whole life. I do not want to look back, I would like to leave it all behind me. I want to shed the past like a heavy coat...I have no interest in dragging those memories around. At least the memories of a 1000 Dr’s appointments and the fear and grief and loss. And the's scary! I have zero interest in figuring that out. I can not tell you what’s ahead, I only know God holds me. But the meetings with the Dr and judge is about Jessica’s future. We need to own the future legally. But it is not something I can deal with...I do not possess the grace. I only have grace for now. The only way to survive autism is to live in the now. So yesterday was plain awful (a quote from the movie Annie). But the sun shines today because today is all I see. I survive autism one day at a time. It is the only way to do this. Do not look back, and don’t look ahead, just keep your eyes fixed on now. Now is beautiful! Today I look directly into the eyes of Jessica. I do not see struggle…I see love.