Friday, November 27, 2015
The ground is covered with a heavy frost outside. I boiled water to put in the water container of my chickens. They waited for me to give them extra food today. They need it because of the cold. And I will not be leading the prayer group I usually lead on Fridays. Instead I need to shop for cloths for my kids to wear to their Opas funeral. The cold dark weather seems to mimic my mood. I am really sad. I’m making a slide show, and buying cloths, and it all seems real again. And the feelings of loss and gratitude are with me again. I seem to keep busy, and push these feelings aside. But they are with me and I guess that is just part of being human. We feel love, and we feel loss. But we also know hope, and the strongest emotion I feel at the moment is gratitude. I am thankful for knowing such an amazing, good man like Richard Heymann. I thank God for the life that he has lead.
Saturday, November 21, 2015
Thank you for your prayers. Juergen was stuck in traffic and it took him 7 hours to arrive at his dads. He got there at 10pm and his father died at 11pm. He died peacefully. Juergen was very grateful to be there to thank him and pray for him. Richard was one of the best persons I have ever known. I am so grateful for his life and the gift he was to all of us. He loved Jesus and I have total peace about where he has gone. And I know I will see him again. Jürgen’s dad was a very special person. He was raised on a very large farm near the border of Holland. One of his brothers died in a farming accident, his mother died early from sickness, and his father was killed by the Nazis after he stood up at a town meeting and questioned them. So his life was not easy. He was forced to serve in the German army at the end of WW2. He was only 17 years old. He was sent to Holland. Once they were walking on a road when the road was bombed by the British. Everyone on the high side of the road died, everyone on the low side lived. He loved to study languages. When I first met him he was learning Russian and Swedish. I’m terrible at languages. But Nicole studies languages for the fun of it, just like her Opa. And today I remember so many little things. Like they never eat out much. But now and then Richard and I would sit in a café and drink a coffee. That was a real big deal to him. He taught Juergen how to use tools. So Juergen is very good at fixing things around the house. He was full of wisdom and grace. So many people in his generation were so bitter from the war, but Richard became a Christian shortly after Juergen did in 1973. And God really changed him. He was kind and generous and wise. He loved to learn. He took good care of his family. He always worried that Juergen took care of things like having enough money for retirement. He was responsible. He loved my cooking. He learned to help with the dishes. He liked to watch the news at the same time every night. He used a big cloth napkin that he keep near the place he sat at the table. And he read the new paper, and would cut out articles he thought were interesting. He would send us newspaper articles in the mail. I looked at our phone list today, and it has the phone number of Juergens parents. But they are both gone. It was hard for me to call my own Mom and dad to tell them. I still have them both, but Juergen has lost both of his parents. But at least I am comforted that they could be together in heaven. He was ready to go home. And I will really miss him. But I’m so grateful he did not have to suffer.
Friday, November 20, 2015
Please pray for my husband Juergen. He is driving to North Germany to be with his father. We do not think his dad Richard will live much longer now. And the weather is not good. I am a little nervous about the trip. But Juergen will be with his brother and sisters. And we know Richard loves God and will be going home.
Thursday, November 19, 2015
Yesterday Jürgen and I went to breakfast in Heidelberg. As we drove past the fields that are near Patrick Henry Village (a camp that now houses 6000 refugees) we saw dozens of people walking to Heidelberg. It is a very long walk. And it made me think of the miles they have walked over the past months. The weather was nice, but it is supposed to snow this weekend. I guess I can understand the fear I hear in the US press. But you should really understand the people who planned the Paris attacks were not refugees. They have lived in Europe for a while. And there are angry and disenfranchised people in America. You are not safe just because you close the door on people, who for the most part are fleeing war. I do not know if allowing 1 ½ million Syrian refugees is a great idea for Germany. I know this is a complex issue in the short and long term. I pray for our leaders. But I hope my Christian brothers and sisters would at the very least express some compassion and understanding. If you do not want refugees for security reasons, I get it. But pray for a resolution for those fleeing from war. I feel the same about the children fleeing the drug wars in South and Central America. Please have some compassion. You are afraid you may get hurt…but God will judge you. Perhaps you should fear God more then you fear ISIS.
Monday, November 16, 2015
Sarah came home from school just now, anxious to tell me what happened. The entire school flooded the hallways at noon to pray for an entire minute for the victims of the terrorist attack in Paris. And the kids were talking to each other afterwards. And she told me about how some mean men had suicide vests. And I told her I was proud of her for praying. I remained calm on the outside as she tried to tell me what she had learned today. Sarah is off doing her homework. I am shaken and crying. I wish my 12 year old did not have to know there was such a thing as a suicide vest. I wish I was not sure we will see World War 3. I wish my sons were 6 years old, and not 18. But God has not given us a spirit of fear. And I am moved that millions of people all over Europe stopped and prayed. I pray we all know the comfort of the Holy Spirit. I pray God gives our leaders wisdom.
Sunday, November 15, 2015
Juergen just got our tickets to see it in English! I am looking forward to it!
Sometimes I think the media is working with ISIS to stir up fear and anger in the population. There is a tragic reality that ISIS fighters could be entering Europe with the refugee population. But will we punish the entire refugee population (traumatized hurting families) because of a hand full of cowards? And where was America when the 2 million Iraqi Christians were being forced from their homes, many being tortured and killed? Why did we stand back and do nothing? Even now, why do we allow millions of Syrians to be displaced by their own government and ISIS, but we say no...They cannot come here! I remember reading that ship loads of Jews tried to flee Germany during WW2 and they were turned away by the British government. And I shook my head in sadness and unbelief. But now I read the posts of Christian friends on Facebook who are advocating putting up walls, and reposting the most awful and mean spirited propaganda condemning the entire Syrian refugee population. ISIS has already won. They want us afraid…and they have won! And a friend of mine just told me they are bringing in more security to guard the local refugee camps. Not because of the refugees, but because of the angry Germans that might hurt them. I am so sad! And I am ashamed that I had many of the same fears when the camp was first built 5 mins from my house. But I have tried to learn why they have come. What they have run from. And what I can do to help them. And I pray for the leaders because they need wisdom. It is a mess. But we must be part of the answer, not the ones who are adding to the problems! Instead of hate, we need to show compassion. They are not all terrorists. Most have run away from terrorist and only want safe lives. Jesus said…”31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left. 34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ Matthew 25 31:-36
Sunday, November 08, 2015
We have Amazon Prime. I just started to watch their free Christmas movies. Jessica is so happy because they have Elmo’s Christmas DVD. Oh, and today the coolest thing happened. Jessica loves candles. So at lunch I light two candles for her. And she wants to blow the candles out but has never been able to blow them out. But today my 24 year old daughter learned to blow out candles. So I figure she has earned some wishes!