Monday, June 30, 2008

Oh brother(s)


Thomas asked me if I would give him money to buy football cards. I guess all the boys at school are trading them and he wants to get in on it. I gave him the money for a package of cards (to start). He and Philip buy 3 packs of cards ( one package for Sarah). Well, they pick Sarah up from kindergarten and go play with the cards. I ask Sarah if I can see her cards. She had a handful of old stickers. Thomas kept Sarah's cards for himself, and gave Philip an extra card just to kept quite. So I tell Thomas to give Sarah her cards. A few hours later I find a small stack of hand drawn football cards sitting in front of Sarah's seat at the dinning room table. I guess Thomas REALLY REALLY wanted those cards! You know what? If he is so motivated to have football cards, I could use them to actually get Thomas to do stuff...like home work!

How sad for Germany


Germany of course played and lost to Spain in the European football championship last night. Our kids took a long nap in the afternoon so they could stay up to watch it. They showed the game on the big screen at our church just after the evening service. The kids were so excited!!! Poor Thomas was crying when he got home from the game. I personally felt Germany had not played all that well this whole tournament. I thought they were lucky to be in the finals. But the whole country hoped they would win. I'm sure there is a lot of joy in Spain!!! There is a national depression here!!! So sad for Germany! The boys washed the tattoos off their faces this morning. Oh, so sad!!!

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Nicole's Art


Nicole has been brushing up on her Mickey Mouse (the older style Disney). All I can say is Amazing!!! If you click on the picture it gets larger and you can see the detail better. It was hand drawn, then painted with water color.

Friday, June 27, 2008

This about the Lakeland Revival



I'm getting very excited about going to Todd Bentley's meeting in LA on July 26Th. I hope that the anointing to heal is also very strong in this meeting. I hope God will use me to heal the sick in Germany. You know, I had my airline ticket booked months before this meeting was announced. I am so grateful I can experience some of the Florida revival when I'm in California. I believe God set that blessing up (not just for me...but also for me). I also love and respect Bonnke, and I'm excited about being able to have breakfast with him on July 26TH. I basically feel honored to be going to America. I will love the time I share with Nicole, and my friends Cindy and Donna. I look forward to seeing my family. The time is far to short. I'm grateful for this time. I ask God to bless every wonderful moment!!! I have been collecting gifts I plan to bring with me. I only have 3 weeks to pack. I keep hearing the words , "God is good". I am so happy for the wonderful trip that is coming.

You can watch the revival on God TV. They have a video on demand, so any where any time you can see it.

Victory

"You can not have victory with out conflict...you can not have healing with out pain...you can not appreciate the sunshine with out the rain".
TD Jakes

Victory comes from over coming conflict.

i report on CNN




I loaded 3 photo's I took with Juergens cell phone (my camera is broken) to CNN i report fan zone. Look HERE. Philip was on the top page this morning.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I love the way this man loves his son



I've seen this before but somehow it was the medicine I needed today. Look how hard this father works to serve his son. It is so beautiful. we can not doubt that God, our heavenly father also loves us and has gone the extra miles for us. I pray I can love my kids well today.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Philip says to me very proudly, "Mom, I know what 3+4 is"! I said, "I hope so". Philip says, "3+4 is 8". I said, "no". Then he counts on his figures and says"3+4 is 7". I said" yes" and said a prayer!
On the good side, I just got 2 new Toby Mac Cd's for the boys. They just began taking break dance class last week. They were so excited and rushed to their room to give the new music a try. They have so much fun dancing...and man can my boys move!

the last photo's










We were at the Dr office yesterday. I pulled out my camera. I let the kids take some photos. Well, they got a little anxious for their turn and one of the kids grabbed for the camera...it went flying to the ground and broke. Oh boy!!! So I need yet another camera (the 3rd in a year). Killer!!! A friend told me I should just wait and buy it in the States because the exchange rate is so good. I might do that. I won't stop letting the kids use the camera. They have so much joy taking pictures.

Do I really look that old?

Monday, June 23, 2008

4 weeks from today!

In 4 weeks from today we fly to LA! I'm getting really excited! What a great adventure we will have! After 2 years of planning and saving it's almost time to go! I feel so much joy!!!

I took Philip, Sarah, and Thomas to the Dr this morning. Sarah had to receive 2 vaccinations. Thomas needed tests run to see if he could take drugs for ADHD. I talked to the Dr about sending Philip to a clinic that runs massive tests to figure out what is really wrong with him. Philip was adopted. We don't know if there was Prenatal Exposure to Drugs, Alcohol and Tobacco . He has serious learning problems and speech problems. It's so frustrating for us. He now goes to a school for learning delayed kids. They basically just go super slow in the school. He does not receive occupational therapy even though his hands are super weak. He receives no speech therapy even though his language is majorly delayed. I want to pull my hair out. OK, maybe he was a drug baby... but occupational and speech therapy will still help him! If he has ADHD, maybe drugs will help that? Maybe no one thing is going to fix everything but that does not mean we should not do what we can! But we can not find a Dr willing to think like that. If we don't drive them to do more, they don't. Anyway, my Dr finally said he would allow us to send Philip for more tests. So I hope we can arrange a stay in a clinic that will really dig. We will do all we can to help him get better.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Fast for words

I’m sitting here watching Philip do his 2nd day of Fast forwards. We got the program weeks ago but could not install it because we were given the wrong instillation code. He has to do 48 minutes per day. Yesterday he was crying and shaking as he did the program. I guess he was just so afraid he would not be able to do. He did it just fine…just test anxiety. Today he is much more relaxed. I have to sit here and watch him do it, just to make sure he does the whole thing. The whole program is based upon being able to distinguish different sounds. He has to do it for 10 weeks, 5 times per week. We are bribing him with money towards a new bike. Every time he does the program he gets 1€ . That’s allot of money, but he needs a new bike anyway. He really needs help. After he gets through this program he can do the fast forwords reading program. He is still unable to read (he will be 11 years old in October). Not being able to read is a real handicap. Kids need to read in all kinds of groups. It sets him way back. He did so well today! He is real proud!!! Thank God for a good step forward.

Heidi Baker Gods Love Part 2



God is thinking because he is God. Why doesn't God do stuff the way we want, when we want? This is great!!!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

what we should seek

"Get heaven to show up and miracles will happen" -Todd Bentley
In other words, don't pray for miracles and signs and wonders, pray for the kingdom of God to be here. The kingdom of God is not just words, but also power!

shopping with Jessica...she is so beautiful!




40 things to do that will make your life better

40 Ways to Live a Better Life ~

-Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.
-Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
-Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.
-When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to __________ today.'
-Live with the 3 E's—Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
-Play more games and read more books than you did in last year.
-Make time to practice meditation, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
-Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
-Dream more while you are awake.
-Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
-Try to make at least three people smile each day.
-Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.
-Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, OR issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
-Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
-Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.
-Smile and laugh more. It will keep the negative blues away.
-Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
-Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
-Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
-You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
-Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
-Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
-No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
-Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
-Forgive everyone for everything.
-What other people think of you is none of your business.
-Remember God heals everything.
-However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
-Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
-Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
-Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
-The best is yet to come.
-No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
-Do the right thing!
-Call your family often.
-Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for _______. Today I accomplished ____.
-Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
-Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don't want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.
-Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change.

One month and counting

It's just one month until we leave for our big trip. I'm going to Oregon to spend a week with my family and Nicole’s going to build houses in Mexico. Maybe you don't understand why I'm not going to Mexico. The organization Nicole is going with (global expeditions)is a youth organization. They only let old folks like me go when we are leadership. I could have gone as leadership, but I just felt from God I was to visit my family instead. If I had time to do both, I probably would have done that. I see clearly now that I made the correct choice. I feel a real peace I am taking the correct path. I am so happy to see my little girl Nicole growing so much spiritually. She is stepping out in boldness. She has owned this trip, and invested years preparing for it. I'm so certain God will bless the fruit of that labor! Just one more month and then we go. It doesn’t look like we will come anywhere near to reaching our goal of paying for the building materials for one house ($5,000). We have raised just over $1,000. We did not need to do this, we wanted to. We will bring whatever money is raised and deliver it to the leaders in Mexico to be used to help build a house. I thank each and every person who gave towards this need. Every dime you gave will faithfully be spent on nails and wood. God bless you for your gift!




Friday, June 20, 2008

Bonnke and Bentley


I get the news letter from cfan (Christ for all nations) Reinhard Bonnke's ministry. Today the newsletter was all about the last outreach he did in India. It was an open air meeting, and it rained the entire time. The place was one big mud puddle, but the people came anyway. They were desperate for God. Over 125,000 people registered cards saying they had accepted the salvation of Christ. Then he wrote, "An environment of expectation is the seedbed of miracles". God showed up and miracles happened. The blind began to see, and the deaf began to hear. Expectation seeds miracles...I love that! I just told my parents that I'm coming to Oregon one day later then expected. I have the chance to attend a prayer breakfast with Reinhard Bonnke in Anaheim on July 26, and then Todd Bentley (from the Lakeland revival) will be doing a service in Pasadena that same night. So I get Bonnke and Bentley in one day, talk about your faith super charge! I have a heart filled with expectation...I will see miracles! I want to see the manifest power of God! I feel so honored and blessed! I am soooooooo excited!!!!!!!

Faith

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

TD Jake's said that if you don't need anything, (hope for anything) you don't need any faith. Hope leads you to the place where you can see what you want or need. Faith is the bridge that brings you to the answer to that need.

If the enemy can get you to lose your faith, he won because it's faith that brings you the victory. Say, Faith...don't fail me NOW!!!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Taking a long soak


When I go to America at the end of July, Juergen is maybe putting in a new bathroom. I write maybe because I know he is tired and may just want to take a vacation. I hope he will stick to the plan...

We are looking at tile and tubs. I want a good bathtub! I love to take a soak in a hot bath. It is the very best thing to escape the stress of parenting 5 loud kids.

I've been staying up late all week to watch the revival in Florida. I feel like I have been soaking up the love of God. Last night I felt the power of God so strongly I could hardly lift my head up. It was amazing. This morning I feel light headed, like I have a Holy ghost hangover.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

At the top of my prayer list




Do you believe that ...

"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them." Matthew 18:19-20


Jessica is at the top of my prayer list. I am asking God to heal my girl. Will you pray with me? If you can not pray for her healing, because you just don't have the faith to believe that could happen, please just pray that God would bless her. Could you please just pray for God to richly bless her. Thank you so much for adding your voice...we will knock so loud on heavens door. God will hear us, this much I know. God is calling me on...inviting me to ask him. Maybe you have something you really want to ask God for. Maybe you also need to just start asking?



Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I know that my redeemer lives

I've been thinking allot about the statement by Bill Johnson, "The only right/ claim we have to the past is the testimony of what God has done". I get so much joy just letting go of all that is behind me. That may sound strange to you, I've had a pretty good life. But I'm thinking so much lately about Jessica. Autism has robbed Jessica of a good deal of her child hood. She has never had a friend, never been invited to a birthday party, never gone to camp, could not even attend church. That may not seem like a loss to you, but I use to be a pastor and it is not what I had dreamed of for my first born child. If I were to dwell on this loss, it could eat me alive. No. I will not hold on to this, I agree with Bill Johnson, I have no right to this past! It is gone. The only thing I have a right to is the testimony of a very good God that carried us all these years, who saved Jessica's life when she was born with 4 different heart defects, who kept Jeurgen and I together even when 85 % of all couples with an autistic child break up. I will not fix my eyes on what I lost, but what I have. And I will fix my eyes on my hope...my hope is in God who made the heaven and the earth. Nothing is impossible for Him. The video is "I know that my redeemer lives " in German. The drummer is a good friend Daniel (he taught Thomas for awhile). It's written and sung by Lothar Kosse.


Sunday, June 15, 2008

We love you Papa!



I wanted to get the kids to stretch out their arms and say "We love you this much". Well I could not get them to stop goofing off. I was getting mad! So I said, "I want a picture, and if you don't give me what I want, you don't get any ice cream"!!! It worked! You just need to understand children! We love you Juergen! Happy fathers day. Jessica was taking a nap, and ice cream would not have helped her to stand for a photo. One of the best things Jessica ever wrote was about her dad. She wrote, "My Papa is a superman, and a wonder of nature"...so there you have it!

What I think about


It's strange the things that run through my mind. Juergen has been at his dads all weekend. They were celebrating Richard's 80Th birthday. Juergen wanted to help him get stuff done around the house so it seemed best that we not bring the whole gang. Nicole had an art class all weekend. It was a 2 day workshop on cartooning. She can not decide if she wants to be a research scientist or an artist. I guess when you are gifted it's a real problem to know what path to pursue. You can only walk down one road. I have been reading about spiritual revival and watching what is going on in Florida. I pray all the time for my sweet Jessica to be healed. I don't feel any closer to a miracle then I did before. How are you suppose to feel right before your greatest need has been met? What are you suppose to feel like when the "impossible" suddenly becomes "possible"? I wish I could say I was filled with hope and faith. But God knows my heart. When I look at my beautiful Jessica, my heart breaks. I want her to have the same kind of opportunities as Nicole. I want her to have a future. All I can say is, "Lord Jesus please have mercy", "Jesus, please heal my baby". "Please"!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

I loved watching Tim

On Revival


Have you been watching the Revival in Lakeland? I can be honest with you...I have never liked the show man like style of any evangelist. I love Reinhard Bonnke, I love his spiritual passion, but I don't like his style. How could God use a crazy looking tattooed old hippy like Todd Bentley? Obviously God can do a pretty good job using Todd Bentley. Maybe that is the point. If God can use Todd Bentley, God can use anyone!
It is so amazing to see the people coming from all over the world for one reason...they are so hungry for the Holy Spirit. The Bible promises us that He will pour out His Holy Spirit in the last days. I love the hunger I see in the lives of the people that are going to Lakeland. I was up until 2am watching the broadcast on God TV. I'm really tired today, but I find the whole thing very exciting. So many testimonies of people getting healed. This isn't Africa...this is in the USA! How could God move in signs and wonders in America? And will we see these amazing miracles in Germany? I bet the church in Germany is very divided. There are so many people here so hungry to see God move here in power. There are probably even more people who would like very much to see everything calm, pretty, and in total control (self control). I’m listening to the audio book by Bill Johnson called “When Heaven Invades Earth”. In this book, Bill Johnson talks about the stigmas attached to the revivals of the past. It seems if you want more of God, you need to be willing to look a little “foolish” to the world, and even to some people in the church. I guess the real question is, just how hungry are you for more of God. For me it’s very easy. I grew up in a Pentecostal church. I’ve experienced the fire of God. I am not satisfied with a polite church. I want so much more! I also have a very dear child, my first born child Jessica who has a need only God can meet. Medical science can not heal Jessica. If there is going to be a transformation in Jessica’s life it is going to be supernatural. But I’ve always believed in Gods power to heal. If God happens to be blessing man kind with a healing revival…I say AMEN!!! I want this, I’m not too proud. Bring it on! You see, there were many people who needed healing when Jesus walked this earth. One poor man could not walk. He had some friends that were so desperate for healing; they were willing to tear the roof off the house Jesus was in just to see their friend healed. I’m not proud, I say, “show me the roof” I am there! Does that mean I’m going to Florida? No. I would go if I felt God telling me to. But that same fire will be coming to Germany. I just know it! I’m praying for it. Believe me, I want to see revival in the church more then I want to see Jessica healed. I want the whole world to see the clean, pure power of God. It’s in this place where Heaven Invades Earth, God shows up and wonderful things like healing and salvation happen. Healing is not the goal, more of God is.



People continue to arrive hungry for the touch of God in their lives, to know Jesus better. Many are experiencing heart-transformations as they come to know the Miracle Maker and His ways! It’s incredible to see God revive, restore, renew, and radically transform hearts for Jesus! Bam! The Gospel power of God is at work here! God is making disciples! The magnitude of the blessings of God pouring into the hearts of people is off the Richter scale-over the top! I invite you to come and discover what it’s like to be in His presence, what it’s like to build a personal relationship with God, what it’s like to hear God, to experience God, to move in His power, and to see His purpose wrought in your own life.


-Todd Bentley

Matthew 18:19
"Again I say to you, that if two of you agree on earth about anything that they may ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in heaven."

1 Peter 3:12
"For the eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, And His ears attend to their prayer,"

Jeremiah 32:27
"Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me?"

Mark 11:22--24
"And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God. For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith. Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them"

Friday, June 13, 2008

God, bring the power to Germany!!!

Did you hear me scream!!!


The Director of the school called, he will give Thomas the place in the International school!!! I am amazed by Gods grace!!!Thank you for your many prayers! You can not imagine how grateful we are for this wonderful chance, this incrediable chance!

a shower of God's love

Last night I was listening to the book on Mp3, "When Heaven Invades Earth" by Bill Johnson. He said sometimes the manifest glory of God is so real that odd things happen. For example, people get showered by gold dust during a worship service, or they get caught in a shower of white feathers. Strange, or not it just happened to me. I was sitting in my car waiting for Thomas. Thomas goes to a Christian counselor. She helps him talk through school and adoption related issues. He use to have so much anger. This has gotten better. Anyway, I'm sitting there and all of a sudden the car gets showered with small white feathers. It was like someone had cut a feather bed open and shaked it out on my car. I felt the most wonderful peace. I looked around to see if it was some pollen or something like that. There were not any trees near by. Maybe it was trees, or maybe it was God. Either way, it was wonderful.

A book idea

I just got an e-mail from a teacher in Berlin. She works at a Christian school that tries to help special kids like Thomas. Too bad we don't live in Berlin! She recomended a book written by a professor that has devloped a curiculume that helps kids with ADHD. I just ordered the book, "Hören-Sehen- Blicken-Zählen " on Amazon. I don't know if it is translated into English. If this looks good, we will give a copy of the book to Thomas' next teacher. Hopfully, he will have a new teacher! Thank you for your idea Kerstin.

US Airways, United add fee for first checked bag


I'm taking US Airways from Frankfurt to LA. Then I take United from San Diego to Eugen, Oregon. This new baggage fee could cost me a small fortune! US Airways will not apply the fee to travelers coming to and from Europe (yeah). United does not start the fee increase until Aug 18, I am ending my United flight on Aug 2 (Yeah). So, I can still shop, shop, shop. With the Euro so high to the dollar, it would be such a crime to be restricted to what I could carry on!!! I am buying the kids school cloths for next year, and I may even bring home a cast iron Dutch Oven (no kidding). Last year I brought home a cast iron skillet. I love this skillet, and use it almost everyday. I hope to replace all my pans with cast iron cookware. It cooks better, and it is healthier. I'm sure you can get cast iron cookware in Germany, but so far I have not been able to find the high quality cast iron pots and pans they have in the USA.


Cast iron cookware has many benefits over aluminum cookware. It is virtually indestructible, retains heat well and spreads it evenly over the cooking surface, and cooks well at a wide range of temperatures. Cast iron cookware can also add necessary iron to your diet!

When food is cooked in cast iron, trace amounts of iron leach out of the cookware and into the food. Foods with high moisture content and acidity, such as applesauce, chili, and spaghetti sauce, which are stirred frequently and cooked for a long time, will absorb significantly more amounts of iron than foods that are fried quickly, like hamburgers.

It is estimated that 60% to 70% of Americans do not get enough iron in their diets. Iron is a vital mineral, and an essential factor in the body's ability to efficiently circulate oxygen through the blood stream. Iron is needed for the production of neurotransmitters, the chemicals which allow information to be passed between nerve cells.

Low levels of iron in the blood can result in insufficient amounts of oxygen being circulated, leading to tiredness and headaches. An extreme deficiency can lead to anemia, with nausea, vomiting, weakness, suppression of the immune system, and difficulty in maintaining body temperature. Inadequate iron levels can be caused by low dietary intake, excessive blood loss, or the body's inability to absorb iron due to an underlying disease.

Women who are pregnant or of childbearing age, or who have heavy menstrual periods, have the greatest need for iron. Pre-term or low birth weight infants, older toddlers, teenage girls, and patients with gastrointestinal disorders or kidney failure are also at high risk for iron deficiency. Athletes lose iron through perspiration.

Praise God!!!

Juergen went to the International school to see if Thomas could get a place in the 4TH grade this Fall. He was able to talk with the head Secretary and the teacher that would be Thomas' teacher. The Secretary remembered our family. She even thought it was good and noble that we had adopted Thomas and Philip (they have not met Sarah). Thomas went to school in the first grade at this school. He only traded to a special school for kids with speech delays. Sometimes I think we made a big mistake by taking him out of the school in the first place. Anyway, they are setting up a smaller class for kids that speak German as a second language. The director must make the final decision. The Secretary will talk with him next week. She sounded very positive. Please keep praying. Juergen said he thought the teacher was great. The set up is just what Thomas needs. It would be an amazing blessing if this could work. Our son is so destroyed. He needs hope like a drought stricken land needs rain. He needs a team of teachers that are on his side and that care that he succeeds. His present teachers are convinced he is a loser, and they seem to tell him this everyday. Hope is so powerful. Thomas needs hope!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

The past

The only claim we have to the past is the testimony of what God has done.
- Bill Johnson

please pray


Juergen spent two hours with Thomas helping him with his homework (this is after the 2 hours he already spent at the tutors). This happens almost every single day. Thomas is sinking in school. He is sinking hard. The German is just too hard for him. I personally think they put too much emphasis upon language ability. Every t must be crossed, and every i dotted or the sentence is wrong. Know one seems to care that he has other abilities. Writing is important, but it's not the only important skill. How about cultivating imagination, and other skills in science and history, music and art. But even in these classes too much of the grade is based upon how correct your sentences are (certainly not the content of the sentence). Thomas is a smart boy with ADHD. He is dying in this school system. His German is awful. So what if he know how to use a computer, build Lego, drum, and dance. So what!!! Juergen is going to try again to get him into the International school. Generally you must go to school where you live. The International school can accept students from other schools, and they have special instruction in German as a second language. They have said no 2 times, but we feel so desperate now...please pray they will finally say yes. Thomas needs some help, and some hope.

What helps lower cholesterol


What helps lower cholesterol? I just read that omega 3 fatty acids (found in fish oil)and fiber (eatting whole oat meal) helps.

High Cholesterol


I'm healthy Praise God. The lump on my collarbone is nearly gone. It looks very much like it was a swollen lymph node. All the tests came back good, except one. My cholesterol has gone way up over the past 2 years. My total cholesterol was only 179 in 2006, now its 209. It still isn't super high, but it has gone way up in just two years. It has me scratching my head why? I hardly eat meat or fried foods. I'm going to research how to bring that number back down. I'm 46 going on 47 years old, and age may just be the key factor in why it's gone up. Does anyone know if the hormone estrogen effects cholesterol? I just bet it does! I'm going through menopause (just what you all wanted to know). I can hardly believe I'm pressing towards 50 years. I still feel 30 in my brain. Anyway, I'm healthy. No cancer. My blood pressure and blood sugar are very good. I've got to get my cholesterol to go back down.
I did a web search...


Q: Do women have to worry about cholesterol?


Yes. Heart disease is the number one cause of death for both women and men in the United States. High blood cholesterol levels raise your chances of getting heart disease. Blood cholesterol levels in both men and women begin to go up around age 20. Before menopause, women have lower cholesterol levels than men of the same age. After menopause, a woman's cholesterol level can go up.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Hot wheels


All the boys in our neighborhood have pretty cool looking bikes. Philip and Thomas have Nicole's hand me downs. They are both blue bikes, not "girly" bikes...but not too cool. I would love to give them something new, but I feel like we already spoil them too much. If they had a birthday, or something like a good report card I would consider it. I know Thomas will have nothing like a good report card. He may even bring home 5's because he did not finish the home work, or more often lost the homework (maddening). I told the boys I would get them a new bike "if" then came a long list of weekly chores they could do. Like they could take out the trash, load the dish washer, finish that homework. So we looked on e-bay at bikes. We even found some very hot wheels starting at 1€. Who knows, in 3 to 4 days we may win a bid on one of the dream bikes. If we do, they will learn a very important lesson. NEVER PAY FULL PRICE FOR ANYTHING. I may not get them to work for a long time to earn the money for a new bike, but I can teach them where to shop!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Fathers Day is coming

The best of Mike Huckabee



I just love Mike Huckabee. I sure hope he is the VP. It looks like John McCain is not even considering him. I would really be excited about the race if Mike Huckabee
were in it!

If you want Mike Huckabee to be the next VP, you can sign an online petition HERE.
or send a letter to John McCain.
John McCain 2008
P.O. Box 16118
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Holy Hip Hop

If my sons are going to do break dance and hip hop, I want them dancing for God! Here are some Christian Hip Hop groups. The difference is the moves are clean, not rude and the music has God honoring lyrics. If you have listened to rap, you know there is some pretty awful stuff out there. I don't want to equip my boys to be the stars of the disco clubs. I want them to dance for God!



Monday, June 09, 2008

How exciting!


How exciting! I got a call from the dance teacher. They had planned to do a break dance class starting on Monday (5 times before school ends). They needed 6 kids and only had 3, so the class was canceled. With Philip and Thomas the class would only be 5 kids. The class is really pretty cheep (32€). That is 8€ per 2 hour lesson. You can pay 25€ per hour for piano lessons, 15€ for drum lessons. The boys had such a great time dancing, and it is such a boost to their confidence I said I would cover the cost of the 6Th student (pay for 3 kids) if they would go forward with the class. They decided to do it. We are going to try to find a friend to join the boys. This is a boy/girl class. I don't care about that. I'm just so excited the boys get to take another class. They have so much fun doing it, and it's something they are very good at. I got the feeling the teachers really loved teaching the boys.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Hip Hop dance

I signed Philip and Thomas up for a one day Hip Hop dance class. They did amazingly well! They just have the moves! The teacher was really impressed, especially with Thomas. With all the stuff he does "wrong" it's so important for us to find the things he can do right! She said both boys had unbelievable energy. That's not a good thing in school, but it really helps if you want to dance. We are going to sign them up for the fall break dancing class (it's a boys only class). Thomas is so loud, I keep thinking he will be on the cheer leading squad for UCLA some day. Someday we will see what all these extreme gifts are for. Someday its all going to come together. Instead of being the ugly duckling he is going to be the "cool dude".




Saturday, June 07, 2008

A letter to Grandma and Grandpa on their 50Th


Here is a letter Jessica wrote for my parents. Jessica is 16 years old. She has autism. She can not talk, but as you can see she can think. Today is the 50Th wedding anniversary of my parents. I love you Mom and Dad! I hope you enjoy your party! Thank you very much Shelley, Dianna and Rick for all the work you have done for Mom and Dads party! I'm sure other people also helped with the party...and I thank all of those who helped make this day special! I'm sure it's going to be great!!!

Letter to Grandparents on their 50Th wedding anniversary

Dear wedding people,

I have heard that you almost 50 years now act with same name. Test of love you have passed. Cheerful fellowship and blessing of children has mesmerized your togetherness. You are dear to me and I wish you many happy moods.
Mama is your child, Daddy came along. Then the pampered grandchildren tumbled into life. Special fortune is the glorious family bond.
Right now I am in the youth hostel on a school trip with my class. Unfortunately it rains today but otherwise it is good.
Debating we pursue several distractions (=entertaining things). The mood is good and I am happy. I hardly give trouble to Frau Grimm (her caretaker). We live together in one room and understand each other incredibly well. Homework I did readily and waited for Frau Grimm to leave so I can listen to music in quiet. But she mostly says "yes" when I want to listen to music. A monuments breakfast buffet gives joy to everyone.

I wish you masses of happy feelings and retirement without worries. I wish you joy from the photos we will send and very good health. The old Jessica is doing good and greats you from the heart.

Your grandchild Jessica

Friday, June 06, 2008

She came home today


Jessica has been away all week with her class. You should have seen her face light up as her bus pulled into the parking lot of her school. I missed my baby. I was trying to figure out what I miss the most when Jessica is not with me. I think it's having the one person in my life that depends totally on me, but also trusts and appreciates me 100%. The other kids also "need" me, but they often are the voice of criticism. Nothing I do for them is ever right. Maybe it's just the age (Thomas is nearly 11, and Philip is almost 10). Jessica is all sweetness. I miss her sweet laugh, I miss her sweet little hand that wants to hold mine as she falls asleep at night. She had a great time on her trip. She wrote something for my parents Anniversary and I'll post that tomorrow. I am so glad she is home...my sweet baby is home!

The photo is of Jess feeding Juergen gummy bears.

The big day




My parents will be celebrating their big 50Th wedding Anniversary tomorrow. In a way I feel like a pretty bad daughter. They will be having a big party, and I will not be there. My sisters have out done themselves preparing for this event. I have to thank Dianna and Shelley for all the thoughtful details they have worked out. I hope it's a great party that everyone enjoys. I feel caught between generational needs. My parents have their Anniversary now, but Nicole needs me to travel with her 6 weeks from now. It is very expensive in both time and money to travel to the USA. I know everyone understands, but the choices are always hard to make. I'm glad to be investing in Nicole's spiritual growth. I'll just have to save my hugs and kisses and give them to my parents later. They are parents (wonderful parents) so I know they understand.

The quilt was made by my sisters. It is a family tree. Isn't it great!!!

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Special Needs




When we adopted Philip in 2001, his special need was 2 holes in his heart (ASD/VSD). That need had already been addressed in Thailand. He came to us “healthy”. But Philip has allot of special needs not listed on his adoption records. We have been spending years trying to figure out why Philip has so much trouble learning. In this long process we have learned that Philip has ADHD, an auditory processing problem, and a visual processing problem. I sat with him today as he did his math homework. His class moves very slowly. They are finally doing numbers larger then 10. This is a problem for Philip because he only has 10 fingers. He has trouble memorizing things. The information goes in, but the brain just will not record the message. There is progress but it is slow and frustrating.

Today Juergen will be taking Thomas to a clinic for additional diagnostics. We are sure he has ADHD. Last night I wrote a list of traits I believe describe Thomas. When you look at the list of ADHD traits, Thomas is the list. He has 11 of 12 possible ADHD traits. The exception is Thomas can focus on a task for a long time (like building Lego). I’m very frustrated with Thomas. Last week, Juergen gave him a paper (a teacher’s evaluation for the ADHD appointment). Thomas still did not give the teacher the paper. Perhaps this is proof enough he has a problem. We pay allot of money every month for homework help. He finishes his homework but fails to turn it in. This happens over and over again. I know his grades will be very bad again. It is so frustrating!!!! I say give the boy drugs! It is time to try drugs! He is a smart boy but can not follow through on anything.

Am I discouraged? No I am not discouraged. Last year at this time I was discouraged. I could see my sons had a problem, but I was totally in the dark about the cause or treatment of the problem. We are getting pretty close to a diagnosis. It will take years, maybe a life time to treat their special needs. But at least we are getting close to knowing what we can do. There are things that can be done. I’m not discouraged. You can not define a person by their disabilities. You need to look at their abilities too. Hopefully we can help both boys overcome their disabilities so their real gifts (and there are many) can shine through.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Running mates

Obama just wrapped up the nomination for Democratic candidate for the US president. That is historic! I congratulate him and America for not considering the color of his skin. He is now considering a running mate. At lest half the Democrats want Hillary to be that running mate. I also congratulate her. She is a very strong women, worth respect. I am for McCain. McCain also deserves respect for a life time of service. I personally think Obama is too young and inexperienced for the job( we are the same age). I am personally hoping McCain will nominate Mike Huckabee as VP. I think Huckabee is strong, articulate, funny and there is no doubt in my mind a Christian.

first prize


Nicole's class competed in a State competition in math. The entire class had to play a part in this competition. They won a prize and had to go to Karlsruhe
for the awards today. They ended up winning the first prize for best math class in the whole state of Baden-Württemberg (10Th grade). Nicole is technically in the 9Th grade but her class is being accelerated so they will graduate one year early. The prize was 200 € and a trip to Strasbourg in France. Normally they would be trilled to go to Strasbourg but the class is going there on Friday. Anyway, best math class in the state is a big honor. Most of this honor needs to be given to 3 students in Nicole's class that are basically math Genesis'. Everyone in the class had to play a part in the competition, but I'm sure these 3 kids brought the extra shine to the group!

my health


I went in for my computer tomography this morning. I was nervous but tried to stay calm. On the way there I started writing a song. "In your hands is the help that follows me, the love that sets me free and the hope that holds all my tomorrows ". They gave me a dye so that they could see contrasts in my lungs. I've never had to have any kind of dyes shot into my arm. I've always been very healthy (Praise God). Anyway, the dye made me very sick. I guess I'm allergic. I said stop...I sat up and began violently throwing up. Thank God there was someone there to hand me pans (yes pans) to throw up in. They also shot something else into my arm. This calmed my system down but it also made me sleepy. It's been 4 hours, and I still feel shaky. Juergen had to come pick me up and bring me home. I hope my car doesn't get towed away. It is in short term parking. My lungs and chest are clear of tumors (again, I Praise God). I'm sure I would not do very well if I had to do chemotherapy. I am sure I would be very sick. I'm greatful to be one step closer to a clean bill of health.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

50 ways to leave your lover

When I first thought of the theme 50 I also thought of the song "50 ways to leave your lover". This would not be the "ideal" song for a wedding anniversary I admit. We live in a world of "leavers". It takes 2 very committed people to actually stay in a marriage for 50 years. I'm sure there are more then 50 ways to leave but I'm very glad my parents did not use them. I honor their long years of steadfast commitment.

Monday, June 02, 2008

50 years

My parents will be celebrating their 50Th wedding Anniversary this next weekend. I will not be going to the party because I'm traveling to Oregon in August. I thought I would write a little bit about my parents, marriage, and 50 years. I found this list of 50 things learned by a reporter of the Chicago Tribune. I agree with most of what he says. What do you think?

50 things I've learned in 50 years, a partial list in no particular order
I’m turning 50 next week. So I thought I’d take the opportunity here to list 50 things I’ve learned in 50 years—truths gleaned from experience and the words of others that guide, inspire and sometimes haunt me:

1. It’s better to sing off key than not to sing at all.

2. Promptness shows respect.

3. You can’t avoid offending people from time to time. When you don’t mean it, apologize. When you do mean it, accept the consequences.

4. The first person to use the expression “Get a life!” in any dispute is the loser.

5. The medium is not the message. Those who issue blanket condemnations of any form of communication—be it TV, tabloids, text messages or blogs—simply aren’t paying attention.

6. The most valuable thing to have is a good reputation, and it’s neither hard nor expensive to acquire one: Be fair. Be honest. Be trustworthy. Be generous. Respect others.

7. Prejudice and bigotry is hard-wired into us. You can’t overcome it until you acknowledge it.

8. Don’t be bothered when people don’t share your tastes in music, sports, literature, food and fashion. Be glad. You’d never get tickets to anything otherwise.

9. Cough syrup doesn’t work.

10. Empathy is the greatest virtue. From it, all virtues flow. Without it, all virtues are an act.

11. The Golden Rule is the greatest moral truth. If you don’t believe in it, at least try to fake it.

12. Keeping perspective is the greatest key to happiness. From a distance, even a bumpy road looks smooth.
13. You can’t win arguing with police officers or referees, but every so often you can fight City Hall.

14. It’s not “political correctness” that dictates that we try not to insult others’ beliefs and identities. It’s common decency.

15. It may not feel like it, but it’s good luck when you have people at home and at work who aren’t afraid to tell you when you’re wrong.
16. It’s 10 times easier to fall in love than to stay in love. And no matter what the sad songs say about romance, broken hearts do mend.

17. Don’t waste your breath proclaiming what’s really important to you. How you spend your time says it all.

18. Keeping an open mind is as big a challenge as you get older as keeping a consistent waistline.

19. It’s never a shame when you admit you don’t know something, and often a shame when you assume that you do.

20. Wounds heal faster under bandages than they do in the open air.

21. Fear of failure is a ticket to mediocrity. If you’re not failing from time to time, you’re not pushing yourself. And if you’re not pushing yourself, you’re coasting.

22. Anyone who judges you by the kind of car you drive or shoes you wear isn’t someone worth impressing.23. Grudges are poison. The only antidote is to let them go.

24. If you’re in a conversation and you’re not asking questions, then it’s not a conversation, it’s a monologue.

25. In everyday life, most “talent” is simply hard work in disguise.

26. Great parents can have rotten kids and rotten parents can have great kids. But even though biology plays a huge role in destiny, that’s no excuse to give up or stop trying.
27. Four things that most people think are lame but really are a lot of fun: barn dancing, charades, volleyball and sing-alongs.

28. Two cheap, easy self-improvement projects: Develop a strong handshake and start smiling when you answer the phone.

29. When something that costs less than $200 breaks and it’s not under warranty and you can’t fix it yourself in half an hour, it’s almost certainly more cost-effective to throw it out.

30. Most folk remedies are nonsense, but zinc really does zap colds.

31. Physical attraction is nice, but shared values and a shared sense of humor are the real keys to lasting love.
32. To keep dental visits regular, schedule your next appointment on your way out from your last appointment.

33. The 10-minute jump start is the best way to get going on a big task you’ve been avoiding. Set a timer and begin, promising yourself that you’ll quit after 10 minutes and do something else. The momentum will carry you forward.

34. Laundry day is much easier when all your socks are the same and you don’t have to sort them.

35. Candor is overrated. It’s hard to unsay what you’ve said in anger and almost impossible to take back what you’ve written.

36. Goals that you keep to yourself are just castles on the beach. If you’re determined to achieve something, tell people about it and ask them to help you stick with it.

37. Mental illness is as real as diabetes, arthritis or any other disease, and no more disgraceful. It’s the stigma that’s disgraceful.

38. In crisis or conflict, always think and act strategically. Take time to figure out what the “winning” outcome is for you, then work toward it.

39. All the stuff you have lying around that you’ll never want, need, wear or look at again? It just makes it harder to find what you do want, need or intend to wear. File it, donate it or throw it out.

40. Exercise does not take time. Exercise creates time.

41. Almost no one stretches, flosses or gives compliments often enough.

42. It pays to keep handy a list that includes a trusted plumber, electrician, locksmith, appliance repair specialist and heating contractor. When you really need one is no time to start looking.

43. The store-brand jelly, cereal, paper goods, baking supplies and pharmacy products are good enough.

44. When you mess up, ’fess up. It’s the fastest way, if there is one, to forgiveness.

45. When you’re not the worst-dressed person at a social event, you have nothing to worry about.

46. Be truthful or be quiet. Lies are hard to keep track of.

47. Your education isn’t complete until you’ve learned to take a hint.

48. There’s a good reason to be secretive about your age. People tend to assume things when they know how old you are. “Oh, he’s turning 50,” they might say, for example, “probably full of cranky self-lacerating aphorisms that he thinks qualify as wisdom.” (See "Bored, Tubby, Mild," an animated editorial cartoon along these lines)

49. Whatever your passion, pursue it as though your days were numbered. Because they are.
50. Readers love lists. You got to the bottom of this one, didn’t you?

A busy weekend



We had a very busy weekend. I could use a few days of rest. On Saturday we got allot done around the house. Saturday night Juergen and I got to go out together. We were celebrating his 49Th birthday. First we went to see the new Indiana Jones movie. It was totally predictable and completely unrealistic but I loved it anyway! Then we went to a small hole in the wall pizza place. We are considering having Juergens Big 50Th party bash in this very cute Italian place. At least it's on our short list. Sunday was actually Juergen's birthday. The kids and I made a great birthday breakfast for papa. We had eggs Benedict with "holiday sauce". It's Hollandaise sauce but since we eat it every holiday, Thomas calls it Holiday sauce. Thomas had a work shop in African drumming Sunday afternoon. Sunday night
Juergen and Nicole got to raise some money for the house in Mexico. They gave an announcement at Heidelpraise, and received part of the offering. This morning Jessica left on a week long class trip. I was up until nearly 1 am packing her stuff. I worry about my sweet Jessica when she is not with me. I know she'll be well cared for but I will really miss my girl.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Happy Birthday Juergen!



I know your going to love this special version of the old standard! I did not actually watch the whole video...and I bet you won't either! I love you to the end!!!