The Heymann Family Journal

I listen to the one year Bible on line . It is a reading program that gets you through the whole Bible in 365 days. You can start it on any day, but why not begin on Jan 1? I have a small yahoo group you can join to read/ listen to the whole Bible in 2010. Faith comes by hearing the word of Go... http://groups.yahoo.com/group/1-year-bible-2010/

The kids are at winter camp (Philip, Thomas and Nicole). Juergen and I were going to take Sarah and Jessica up North to visit Juergens dad Richard. First Richard was very worried about the snow. We decided to postpone our trip until next week. Then the water pipes broke at Juergens dads house. The whole kitchen floor had to be ripped out. It's good we aren't there now. Richard is 80 something...and he is getting a little "autistic". He needs order. I'm thinking Juergen should go alone to visit Richard. I think the thought of our family visiting him is stressing Richard out. Having a clear routine and order is all he can manage. I think part of this maybe the heart medication they have him on. It thins his blood, but has a negative affect on his memory. Getting old is not for wimps! Richard is an amazing man. He can speak 5 languages. He is an extremely intelligent and gracious person. It must cause him a great deal of fear not to have his sharp m...

We are having a good family Christmas. I hope you are too. Some friends of ours are facing a very dark period in their marriage. I hope they will consider watching this movie, and maybe dare to learn to love each other. Here is the first of 12 parts of the movie "fireproof". One of the greatest gifts on earth is a good marriage. It doesn't always come easy...some times you need to fight for it! The German book is 40 Tage Liebe wagen, you can find it at Amazon.de. http://www.amazon.de/Tage-Liebe-wagen-Anleitung-Partnerschaft/dp/3940158224/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1261774955&sr=8-3

Juergen gave me a sonic toothbrush for Christmas. I really wanted one. My gums need some help. This toothbrush is fancy. It has 6 different heads. I have to read the book so I can figure out what do with all these different brush heads. And when you use this brush it's like nothing I have ever tried before. I totally love it. Thanks Juergen...you really bring a smile (a very white and healthy smile) to my face! Now if I can find this super cool toothpaste thingy.

Juergen took the kids to church at 4pm. They saw a very good children's play about the Nativity, and forgetting Jesus at Christmas. I stayed home with Jessica and Philip (Philip is sick, and Jess hates crowds). After church we eat Mexican food. It turned out great if I do say so myself. Then we rolled dice to see who got to open the first gift. The highest got the first gift, lowest was last. That worked well. Everyone was pretty happy with their presents. I got a new Mp3 player for my car. I also got candles from the boys and a Susan Boylan CD. Nicole and I took Jessica out for a drive. She didn't seem very satisfied with her gifts. I told her I would take her shopping after Christmas. It's so hard to shop for Jessica. Everyone is playing Wii Resort. I'm going to call my parents. I got a small stack of drawings from the kids. I'll have to scan those for you later. I hope where ever you are tonight that you are blessed...and mostly that you do not ...

Juergen worked today. He has the rest of the year off. He called me and said he would be late. He is doing his Christmas shopping. Actually he is doing his shopping early. He generally waits until tomorrow (Christmas eve). The stores will be open tomorrow until noon. To be honest he is chasing a gift for Jessica. We want to build her a special light. It will be a bookshelf that holds 3 long tubes that have water and plastic fish. It's hard to explain. It looks like fish tanks with colored lights. Jessica wanted these fish lights. We tried to figure out a way to secure them to the wall so they will not fall. I had the idea of cutting holes in the top of a small book shelf. The lights could stand in the shelf, and you can screw the shelf to the wall. Does that make any sense? It's hard to explain. It's even harder to find something special for Jess. I think she will enjoy this. Juergen is having fun doing his annual Christmas shopping. I cleaned the house...

I can not find my corn husks (I had some I'm sure). Maybe Juergen tossed them? Any way I have to use my pork and chicken to make enchiladas instead. Maybe I can find banana leaves in a Asian cooking shop? There aren't many places (if any) you can buy real Mexican food supplies. It will probably be easier for me to buy banana leaves for my Tamales. I will find the right stuff...it will happen! It just won't happen this Christmas!

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Tamales Recipe Authentic Mexican Tamales Mexican tamales (tamal is the Mexican "singular" use of the word) are packets of corn dough (masa) with a savory or sweet filling and typically wrapped in corn husks or banana leaves. The history of tamales dates back as early as 5000 BC. Popular varietes include fillings of pork, beef, green chili, chicken or beans. Ingredients * 5 lbs. lean pork or beef, cooked and shredded * 6 to 7 lbs. fresh masa * 1 1/2 lbs lard * 1 tbls. salt * 1 1/2 pts. red chili sauce * 1 bundle oujas (corn shucks) Directions To make tamales, cook meat by boiling in a large covered pot with enough water to cover completely. Add salt to taste and slow boil till completely done. Cool meat and save broth. When meat has cooled, shred and mix in the chili sauce Corn Shucks: To prepare the corn shucks ( outer husks), soak them in a sink or large pot of warm water for about 2 hours or until soft. Gently separate without tearing. Masa: (make ma...

A high school chemistry teacher has an interesting open letter to his students in Energy Bulletin. He takes stock of a changing world, and makes some interesting predictions: "Some of you will grow food. -- Probably a lot of you, actually. Even those of you who do other things as your main job. So you should probably start to learn how it’s done. Right now. Because it’s not something you can learn in a year – how to add fertility and prepare the soil, when to plant and harvest, how to store the harvest and save seeds, etc. There’s more to it than you think. And it’s gonna get even trickier when the climate starts its carbonic seizures – droughts, floods, heat, cold, and storms. In no particular pattern. So you better be good." People still regard home farming as an elective "green" activity, but might it be a survival skill by the time current teenagers are adults. Should we start retooling home ec classes to start covering agricultural education? I read this today...

Juergen said no to the farm house. It had termites in the roof and would require an extra 50,000 Euros worth of work. It was too much! I'm sad because I loved the house. But I love Juergen more then any house. We have to agree on things like this. Buying it would not be very wise. I just have to believe we have not found what we are looking for. He promised me he would keep looking. I am blessed he is supporting my search. We make a good team, and this is very very important.

I watched big beautiful snowflakes fall slowly on my windshield tonight. I was driving the kids from point A to point B. Philip got out of the car and picked up the broom to sweep the walk way. I didn’t ask him to do it…he just did it. I thought wow, what a grown up thing to do. What a responsible and grown up thing to do! It’s nice to be taken by surprise in a good way now and then. When you have 2 sons with ADHD the surprises are generally negative. What a great surprise!

I'm interested in the colors of the late 1800's because that's when the farm house was built. I watched this video of the Impressionists, I reminded me of my trip to Paris with my brother Rick.

It was a cave and it wasn't sweet. Jesus came to faithful and meek people who were hidden away in a strange place. But a star lead people great and small to witness his birth. They gave gifts that helped Jesus and his family live in Egypt for years...it saved his life.

Well, we see the house (God willing) tomorrow afternoon. It will already be getting dark. I think we will need to bring our own lights so we can get a good look at the place. A friend that teaches house renovation at a school will be coming along. I praise God for the connection and insight he can give us. Chances are he will say it is too much work. The house was built in the same year Lincoln was killed (1865). Imagine! It needs new heat, new electric and new water. The top floor needs to be built...walls, insulation , heat etc. I know we haven't got the budget to do everything. For example it could use two new bathrooms. But the bathrooms work, and they really don't "have" to be done. It's just a cosmetic thing. I really want new stairs in the house. The stairs that are there are very steep and small. For safety I want new stairs. I can live with less then perfect. The question is, can we afford the important stuff...and how much time will i...

We couldn't get anywhere this morning because of the snow and ice. Jessica’s teacher couldn't get to school, we couldn't get into Heidelberg. Sarah had to stay home. We had appointments that had to be rescheduled. It makes me wonder, if just a little ice and snow can cause such a mess...what would we do in a real emergency? I didn't expect to be home today, but I'll try to make the most of it. Sadly, Juergen and I were going to go out to breakfast before we had our final meeting to become Jessica’s guardians. I guess we would have spent the morning talking about the farm house. Maybe it's better we just wait to talk...we need more information. We hope to see the place again on Saturday. This time we want to bring someone who understand major house renovation. Poor Juergen. I want the house allot...he dreads the work involved. I wish we didn't need to decide now. But just because it's hard doesn't automatically make it wrong. Something’...

Yesterday the realtor called and said the farm house I like the best needs to be sold. The women that owns it is in a Nursing home and her family needs to pay for her care. They want to drop the price. We need to decide soon. They will list the new price next week. It will probably sell fast. I think the price is very good now. Still, I had hoped to put off any decisions. It's Christmas. And renovation will be costly and time consuming. I didn't want to think about it just yet! We need wisdom about this. There are not many houses like this one...but the work is great. I would love to have the house, but I hate the work involved. We may very well say no. I hope we agree to say yes, but we really have to both agree. I think we will try to see the house again on Saturday. The realtor is going on vacation for 3 weeks. Perhaps we can tell him yes or no in January. I really wouldn't want to deal with this now, but our timing is not always Gods timing. Perhaps, a...

I have been receiving many Christmas letters this year. My friends are good writers. It’s amazing to me how they manage to capture a whole year in two or three pages. I thought about trying to do the same thing. I honestly think it’s impossible. There are 7 of us. Life is full, and I know you don’t have the time to read what we have been doing and thinking over the past year. Just read our blog. That will cover some of the high lights. For now, I thought I would just mention we are doing well. Juergen and I are still holding hands and walking in good unity after 19 years of marriage. I love my man! Juergen turned 50 years old in June. We got to celebrate the day with some good friends in Cyprus in a villa overlooking the sea. My brother Rick was the cook, and he blessed us all! Having Rick in Europe was totally great! I lost him in Paris...I'll never forget it! Jessica turned 18 years old. She still has autism. We had to go through a legal process to become her pe...

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A good friend stopped by for coffee this morning. She informed me Christmas is next week. Everyone in the house has an advent calendar...everyone but me. Where have the days gone? I'm certain we lost a week. Christmas is already next week! I have the packages all wrapped. I need to make a list to make sure I've got it all covered! I am feeling so mellow...are you certain its not summer time? I feel like taking a long nap on the beach. My body clock says its July...but the weather says its December. I wish I were in Thailand for Christmas! It gets dark at 4pm here. How can anyone feel correct when they have no sunshine? It's entirely too cold and dark. Naps are the only answer. Let's all sleep until spring!

Anne (Sally Hawkins) fell deeply in love with handsome young naval officer Frederick Wentworth (Rupert Penry-Jones) at the age of nineteen. But with neither fortune nor rank to recommend him, I just love a hot cup of tea and a good movie...

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It took me nearly 2 hours but I wrapped the Christmas gifts. I only need to pick up 2 more gifts and I'm done! I also had to wrap the trees and roses outside. It is suddenly getting cold. I don't want my fig tree our Japanese maple to get damaged. I cleaned up the garden and covered the furniture. We may even get snow tomorrow. I should sleep well tonight because I'm so tired!

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Nicole got an A on her Autism report! That's my girl!!!!

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Nicole is doing a talk on Autism in her Biology class tomorrow. This is a personal topic to all of us. I just told her about how Jessica would have the worst temper tantrums when she was 3 years old. I would carry Nicole on my back in a carrier, and Jess would be in the shopping cart. Juergen worked over time for a start up company in Irvine. He was gone all the time, I had no friends because we had moved from San Diego. I felt like I was drowning. Jess was so badly behaved people would say to each other (just loud enough for me to hear) some people shouldn’t have children!!! We had no idea why she had lost all her language skills, and became a wild raging animal. We went from expert to expert. This was 1994 and they were not calling it autism. They had no answers and no hope. I would cry all the time. But my tears would scare Nicole so I had to control my tears. When Nicole took a nap I would cry so hard I would get up off the floor and left a puddle of tears. It was t...

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I found the most beautiful house for sale today. It cost way too much...but maybe we can talk them down on the price (way down)!

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My feet hurt because I was shopping all morning. Christmas shopping. I needed to buy stuff for Nicole’s Advent calendar, and Sarah's Christmas gifts. I try to tackle a little bit of the shopping each week. Each of the kids is different and it takes allot of effort and thought to buy their Christmas gifts. I haven't got a clue what to get Juergen, but I'm sure he will buy something for him self. He always does! Christmas can be stressful for me. I do the decorating, cooking, Advent calendars, and gifts. Juergen brings home the money (no minor thing), but he doesn't feel the weight of the kids expectations. I want it to be nice for them. The nice part for me is just drinking my coffee and listening to the kids play. And if I've done my job well, they are very excited and happy. I actually do not care if I get anything else. I have everything I need, everything I want (well except a farm house, and that will not fit under a tree). I remember my childhood...

Today I put up my Royal Copenhagen Christmas plates. I also bid on another 5 plates that are listed on eBay. While I was at it I bid on some old Christmas ornaments (all 1950's glass tree ornaments). I would love to basically get rid of all my cheap stuff, and replace it with antiques. I think I'll pull all the Christmas stuff out and start sorting everything. I can take the boxes of extra stuff to the second hand store. I have allot of cheap Christmas stuff I bought for when the kids were very little. I think I can get rid of it now. I remember when I was little, my Grandma Moreno had many nice miniatures that she put under her tree. I loved those…I wish I had them today! But you can find really cool stuff on German eBay. Last year I got an angle for my tree top. It has a porcelain face and gold paper wings. It was made for the Christmas market in Nuremberg in 1905.

This farm house I like needs a new heating system. I am looking at pellet heaters in combination with a little solar. Not only is it good for the environment, it makes us more energy independent. No, Juergen hasn’t said yes to the house…but he said we could find out what the renovation cost are. That’s what I’m doing.

My sister Shelley's daughter came for a surprise visit. I just love this video! How great! I wish I was there.

Juergen went into work late so he could have breakfast with me. He remembered it was thanks giving and he wanted to do something special for me. Clearly that man is at the top of my list of what I am thankful for ! My kids are also on my list. Each one of them has grown emotionally, socially, spiritually and in knowledge. I am sorry I can not be with my family back home but so glad my parents and brother each traveled here to see us this year! It's been a very full year. So much life pressed into such a short amount of time! I'm just finishing Sarah Palins book, Going Rogue. I liked her before the book, but I like her even more now. I especially like her support of disabled kids and their families. She really could just sit down and shut up, who needs the stress...but she is very special. I don't know if she will ever be our President, but she will have influence. Sarah's approval rating is up to 47% and Obamas rating is actually down to 46%...could ...

Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad said Monday that the threat of a U.S. or Israeli military strike against Iran was no longer an issue because "they don't have the courage" to attack Iran. I say, want to bet!

It's Thanksgiving week in the USA. I read the amazing and hard work my sister is doing in preparation for the big day. I wish I was going to be at her house! Here it's just one more day. Thomas has drum lessons and Nicole has sports so we will not even sit down and eat dinner together. Juergen will most likely drive the kids through the Big M, and I'll eat a bowl of cereal (sad). It's just not the same! I may make some turkey soup and a pumpkin pudding (a little of the traditional flavor with out the work). I wish I was with my family in America…I do miss being there!

I called about the house with the very big yard. I will try to see it, but I'm pretty sure the house is way too small.

A friend of mine has been spending time looking at houses on the internet for me. Today she called and told me about a house that's for sale in her area. That tells me she wants us to live near her...and I feel so loved! Knowone else is looking for houses for us (that I know of). The house she found looks way too small, but the yard has 7,500 m2. Let me see, that's almost 2 acers (unheard of space for Germany). I must see this mini farm. It has a winter garden and a barn. Maybe we could make it work. And if we get it, I'm going to grow every kind of fruit tree, and keep chickens and goats. I want to be a farmer!

One thing I like about my husband is he lets me look for what is best. I want impossible and complicated stuff. It would be so easy to just say "Amy don't make waves". Our house is fine, and it is so much trouble to look for a better fit. I agree...but! I do not want to change the direction of our lives, I just want a bigger house (we moved in to our house with 3 kids and now we have 5). But more then the big house, I want the big yard. I want to grow my own food. I can not do this in my small yard. Juergen was just nominated to be an elder in our church. I'm proud of him. I know that if he is approved as an elder (the vote is next spring) he will do a great job. I'll try not to get him into too much trouble. I'm not looking at moving away. But Heidelberg is so expensive. A yard comes with a pretty big price tag. I found 2 more houses to look at. The one I like best is a 1978 house (I don't care for the style but it doesn't require mass...

Juergen is nominated as an elder in our church. He shared about himself tonight and took questions. I asked him about his stance on women in ministry (believe it or not a controversy in our church). I know it was not the time or place for that topic, I just wanted to see how diplomatic he could be. He's great! He has my vote.

Juergen and I took a look at a disabled workshop Jessica has been trying for the last 2 weeks. I thought the place was very well run. It was clean, friendly and very organized. The people help pack stuff (like small car parts). Jess hated it. She cried every day. We will just keep looking. They said she could stay one more year in school. I’m trusting we have that extra time to find the perfect place for her. I’m very impressed by the lovely people who spend their life caring for the disabled. They give them a job, and dignity. Nicole is at the University with Juergen. I'm anxious to see how it goes. They have exchange programs for their students. One of the places she could go for her Masters degree is Thailand. They have a Masters degree in sustainable environments. Very cool! You do 2 semesters in Thailand and one semester in Germany. It only takes 3 years to get a bachelors degree…could be a plan! Up date... Juergen loved the school. Nicole liked it too but fee...

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Tomorrow Juergen is taking the day off to visit the University of Hohenheim . This is a 200 year old Agricultural Science school near Stuttgart (just an hour south of us). University is almost free in Germany. In fact, because we have 5 kids I think it is free (all the way through a PhD). Hohenheim is the best University in Germany for Agricultural Science. It is also a very family friendly school. If Nicole gets married and has kids, the University does provide good services to support her and her family so she can continue to study. She is still very interested in studying in America. She has not decided if she wants to be an artist, or a plant scientist. Juergen and I want her near us...but we will support her either way. I must admit I'm glad Juergen could take the day off to take her. All the kids in her class get tomorrow off to look at schools. She was going to look at an art school in Stuttgart (taking the train) but it wasn't anything she was excited about. ...

I noticed there is an UN food summit in Rome this week. They are already saying they don’t expect much progress (sad). There is a world wide food crises. It is only expected to be made worse by a growing population. The population is expected to grow another 2 billion by 2050 (only 40 years away). I am always watching trends in poverty. Millions of children become orphans because of poverty. Child labor, and prostitution is driven by poverty. Birth parents are not generally cruel when they abandon their children, they are desperate and starving. I am also lobbying Juergen to buy me a farm house with a big garden. I want to be able to grow my own food. I think every grassy place in America could be pulled up and replaced with an organic vegetable garden. Imagine the impact we could have on this world if we could teach the poor to grow their own food? The answer is not to give a fish, it is to teach them to fish (or garden). But we do not know how to feed our selves. When ...

I'm listening to a worship CD called I Am, 365 names of God by John Paul Jackson. I got it on I tunes as a down load. It's just music, and the names of God . Very cool. He just read "I am comming quickly"!

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I made a Mexican pumpkin soup today. I used a butternut squash, 2 onions, 6 potato’s, non dairy cream, a little vegetable bullion and 2 table spoons taco spices. Oh and a can of pinto beans. It was great, and will be even better tomorrow! I just made it up myself. I don’t generally use recipes. you chop the veggies together, boil them in lots of water, mash them with a hand mixer and then add the beans, and other stuff. It makes a warm and filling soup. It is totally vegetarian. I was tired of pumpkin soup with curry.

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I saw this cool idea. You take a heavy plastic and put it together in almost any form to make a raised garden bed. Add polls on the corners to make it stable. That's it!

I have raised garden beds. I clean the beds out, putting the old plants in my compost pile. I could just leave the beds until spring, but I want to do more. I decided to buy some horse and chicken manure on eBay. They send it in large 5 kilo plastic buckets and it only cost 1 Euro, + 4 Euro for postage. I will spread the manure over my beds, add a thin layer of leaves, and maybe even some torn up news paper. Then I will place a black plastic tarp over the bed, with some holes in it for water to get in. I'll let this compost over winter. In the spring I'll mix the compost into my soil and hopefully be ready to plant. Horse manure is good because it has allot of straw in it. Chicken manure is pretty strong (I’ve read). I don’t want to over use it. Never put manure directly on plants because it will burn them. I’m hoping the combination of manure, leaves, and newspaper will attract worms to my raised beds. Worms break up soil, and worm castings make the best plant food...

I remember the time well. I sat glued to my TV. I lived in San Diego. I had spent the summer in Germany and we never thought it possible. Never! But the wall fell! And 3 days before Juergen and I were married Germany became united. I cry looking at this video. I remember praying for this. It still amazes me. Jessica’s kindergarten teacher was one of the people who left everything to sneak out of East Germany. She left her children and family…everything. She went to Cuba on a vacation. Instead of returning home, she went to Florida and asked for asylum. She lost everything for freedom. I’m so glad Germany is now whole, and Germans are now free.

Every Sunday is orphan Sunday at our house. And every Sunday is good! If you open your heart to orphans you will be changed forever. I always say, some people hope their life counts, I know my life does. I have changed the whole world because I been blessed by adoption.

Yesterday when we got the note from the Dr saying they mis read Philips MRI, and that he still has a tumor I was sad, but more angry. Anyone can make a mistake, but you shouldn't read about it 3 months later in a note. They should tell you in person, don't you think? To be honest, I was happy but confused when they told Juergen the tumor was gone. I felt numb, not over joyed. Back in March I wrote this on my face book, "Last night I was watching TV. Out of the blue (because I was not thinking about Philip) I physically felt like someone was pulling a cotton ball sized white tumor from my left nostril. I felt it only on the left side of my nose. It was so weird because I really felt it. Then I thought immediately that Philip has a tumor the size of a small cotton ball near his pituitary gland, and they will pull it out of the left side of his nose. I guess we will see if this was a word from God? " I'm not worried about Philip. I'm sad the tumor is still ...

We went to see an old farm house that's for sale. It needs too much work. We will check with the heaters guys, the plumbers etc... but I think it's too much for us (too much time and too much money). I enjoyed looking. I'm happy Juergen is open to the idea of a move. If you are our local friend, don't worry. We are only looking at places that would allow us to basically keep our lives. We want to go to the same church and keep most (not all) of our kids in the same schools. I made a slide show of the old house. I love the garden. But I'm 95% sure we will not buy this one. I learned one of my nieces is expecting a baby, and another niece just lost her baby. I'm so happy for the one, and very sad for the other. How very sad! Both my sisters have lost grandchildren. This breaks my heart. I cried for you...and I am so sorry for your loss. We just got a report from Philips Dr today. They had told us his tumor was gone. Well, it's not gone. It is still there. I gu...

I’ve lived in Germany for 14 years but my German is not really very good. My Uncle use to call me dumb because my language was so delayed in English. I couldn’t speak very well at the age of four years. I know I’m not dumb…at least in English. This week I had to speak extensively with a teacher, a doctor, a pastor, a speech therapist and a lawyer . I can understand maybe 85 % of what is said in normal conversation, but with the lawyer I could only comprehend 10% of what he said. We are trying to gain permeate custody of Jessica our 18 year old autistic daughter. I had to ask Juergen what the man said. He gave me a lecture on needing to learn German. Thank you Juergen. I try, but it does not come easy to me. I cried today because I felt so tired and so stupid. Sometimes raising 5 kids with special needs can just wear you out. Jessica has been home all week because her teacher is sick. I’m very tired, very tired! But added to that is how small I feel when I have to do it a...

This is from ABC's new show "V". Some very cool visitors from another world come to earth. They capture the hearts and trust of the people who blindly give them loyalty. HERE is the web site. It looks pretty cool. I think I can see it online.

It's time for Operation Christmas Child shoe boxes. This year Nicole is working with a group of kids at her school to collect shoe boxes. We packed 4 boxes last night. They are hoping to collect 100's of boxes for needy kids around the world. How about making this an annual tradition. It's just one easy way to teach your kids how to give. And it is the only gift many children will receive...but they receive it with love. HERE is more information. Time is running out, so don't delay! http://www.samaritanspurse.org.au/occ_08_index.shtml

Lord Christopher Monckton, the former advisor for science policy to Lady Margaret Thatcher, believes that if the U.S. signs any climate treaty coming out of the Copenhagen climate change conference in December, it could subject the United States to a global dictatorship. Monckton explains his concerns. Christopher Monckton"[T]his treaty of Copenhagen, which is going to be negotiated by the states' parties to the United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change in December, is going to...establish for the first time in human history a global government," he warns. Monckton contends that the word "government" appears twice in paragraph 38 of the draft, and that paragraphs 36 through 38 explain that the purpose of the treaty is to establish a world government. "Whose job," he explains, "will be to transfer wealth from the wealthy countries, such as the United States most of all, to Third World countries -- and the excuse for this transfer of ...

My sister Shelley wrote about inexpensive Christmas ideas. I thought I would write about what money could buy! $60,000 will buy you a life sized replica of your favorite person made out of Lego. Imagine the joy on your Childs face on Christmas morning when they see the perfect copy of themselves in Lego. Imagine your face when your child takes the Lego person apart to make something new!!! For $500,000 you can get your own Dallas Cowboys End zone. You will of course need a big yard to put that in. Tiffany’s has a really nice blue diamond brooch for $100,000. Sarah loves the color blue! Or maybe you could stick to the classics. For example this 1972 Ferrari 365 GTB/4 Daytona sells for $275,000. And for just over 14 million you can have this lovely home in victoria BC. Ah, the simple life! I just love Christmas shopping!

2009 is almost over and I'm setting some goals for 2010. One of my goals is to read the whole Bible using the One Year Bible plan (about 15 mins per day). You can even listen to the reading schedule on line. I did that with my daughter Nicole last year. I formed a yahoo group and I invite you to join it. Hopefully we can comment on what we have read, and pray for each other. Here is the address... http://groups.yahoo.com/group/1-year-bible-2010/ I will post a few details about the one year Bible, but the plan gets started on Jan 1, 2010. If you have never read the whole Bible in one year, or if you want to do this in a group please feel free to sign up. I have to approve members, and your comments will not be open to the public. I will invite my friends to join this group again towards the end of the year…but why wait.

This morning The kids and Juergen gave me a very nice birthday breakfast. I also got the nicest gifts. The boys spent their own money to buy me a dancing turtle. I'll take some video of it. Nicole made me a box that looks just like my dad. Juergen gave me a gift certificate to a garden center (what I had asked for), and Sarah gave me her wooden shoes planted with flowers. Nicole came back from her missions trip sick. So she also gave me the flu. Oh well!!! I am pretty sure it isn't the H1N1 type.

I'm charging the camera batteries. I hope to get a photo of the kids. Their costumes were nothing all that special. I painted Sarah's face like Lion, Thomas dressed like a secret agent with the head phone and dark glasses, and Philip wore a Darth Vader mask. I spent an hour raking up leaves in my front yard, and lighting the path with a dozen or more candles. Juergen said our house looked the most welcoming on the block. I wanted that. Juergen took the kids trick or treating. Most people never bothered to open the door. SAD!!! I light my path so the kids would know they were welcome here. I made sure we had loads of candy. I didn't want to run out. But now my head hurts from the cold air and the dog barking. The kids are now answering the door. Happy Halloween everyone. Even if you don't like monsters, bless the children that come your way.

Here are some photos of the kids on halloween in years gone by. We have to come up with some ideas for this year. I am so not ready! BTW. Nicole was only 1 years and 3 months old and Jessica was 3 in this photo.

If you have your own food, you don't rely on government, food prices or hyper inflation. Are these guys crazy? The Bible says they aren't! You need 3 years of food stored, and space and experience growing a garden, and storing food. Do you know how to can food? Do you know how to make compost? Do you have the ability to harvest and store water? Do you know how to keep animals like chickens and rabbits (not just for meat and eggs but for the murmur). Did you know good compost needs animal manure? All this sort of stuff takes time to learn. I am only just beginning to learn how to survive a very uncertain future. I hope I never ever need to use these skills! I hope I just end up growing a 100% organic garden. That in it's self is a very cool hobby! But what if I need to know how to grow food to survive? What if I don't need these skills, but someday my kids do? I've spent the last hour watching you tube videos by survivalists. Man, some of these folks ...

This video is about the old German farm house. It had room for pigs, chickens and a very large garden. Today I went to see an old German farm house (built in the 1800's). It has a chicken coop and pig pins and rabbit pins. There is even a very large wine cellar. It needs some work but I love it. You can walk to the S-ban station in 5 minutes (that's the fast train). The kids could be in Heidelberg in only 15 minutes. The neighborhood is very nice, much nicer then ours. I have a half dozen friends in the area. I have to take Juergen to see the place next week. I just don't know if we can sell our house, or afford the renovations. It's not a very big house...but big enough. The garden is huge. The storage space is also huge (2 barns). You could do so much with this place (if you had the time and money). I don't have many photos. The battery was dead on my camera. The kids loved it! Sarah is ready to keep rabbits (but they kept rabbits for food on a f...

There were two enemies pulling me down yesterday. One is called the past, the other goes by the name future. The Dr asked us about all of Jessica’s past diagnosis and treatment. That's almost two decades of struggle. These are not mountains I have climbed...and battles I have won. I am still fighting, and still climb. I will most likely fight and climb my whole life. I do not want to look back, I would like to leave it all behind me. I want to shed the past like a heavy coat...I have no interest in dragging those memories around. At least the memories of a 1000 Dr’s appointments and the fear and grief and loss. And the future...it's scary! I have zero interest in figuring that out. I can not tell you what’s ahead, I only know God holds me. But the meetings with the Dr and judge is about Jessica’s future. We need to own the future legally. But it is not something I can deal with...I do not possess the grace. I only have grace for now. The only way to survive au...