mixed feelings

I've sunk so much personal effort and money into our house I think I never want to move. I want more garden space, and I want to see my friends in Bad Schönborn more, but I dread any thought of selling and moving. We spent hours in the garden yesterday (maybe 10 hours). I love how my yard is turning out. It really is coming together. I am thinking I had better look for a piece of land near by. Maybe a garden I can share with friends. Then we could share turns watering plants, and share tools and seeds. When I'm old I don't want a garden to own all my time and energy. I want to travel. My kids all have friends now here. They all like their schools for a change. Church is so close. The street car and bus can take them most everywhere. I don't have to be a taxi mom. Do I stay and just keep investing in what I have, or move and begin again? I was so sure I wanted to move, but now I think I don't. All I really want is more garden space. I need to buy some land…all I really need is land! We had our first barbeque today. We could use a new grill because ours gets too hot. We sat outside and it was so nice! I love my pergola. It really is beautiful! We got a bid from a painter. God willing we will have the house painted in the fall. Someone passed by our house yesterday. Juergen overheard them say how cool the mural was on the garage door (my brother Rick painted it).