Friday, September 11, 2009
I had just dropped the kids off at a giant indoor park to play. Nicole is watching them. I drove past the US Military housing and the NATO base in Heidelberg. There was a very large wreath of fresh flowers in front of the NATO base. Then I remembered it is 911. Of course my mind started to flood with the emotions of that dark day. It took me weeks to actually sleep through a night. We unplugged our TV for 2 years because the news only feed my fear. Today I feel "normal" again. Still I know it wouldn't take much to cause all those feelings to resurface. The truth is I've stored all that anxiety on the back shelve of my memory bank. It is all there...I will never forget it. My live goes on...but I'm changed forever.