Monday, April 16, 2012
waiting to sleep
It's after 11pm and everyone has gone to bed. Everyone but Jessica. We need to get up at 5am. Juergen will take Mom and Dad to the airport. We figure it will be easier that way. It's not safe for me to drive when I'm crying. I'm sure I will cry...but I'm trying to just not think too much right now. Sometimes denial is good. I don't know if or when I'll see my parents again. Juergen said I can go to the USA at least by next spring. Maybe sooner? It is not good to be so far apart. But I'm going to just think of how glad I am about this visit. It was really good. We had a very good visit. And I was not sure we could have this time together. So I'll just think about the gift of this time, and not about the if or when we can do it again! The kids made a really good dinner tonight. Sarah and Philip made the potatoes. Thomas cut the pineapple. Nicole made a green salad. Philip cooked the chicken, steak and fish. We had ice cream for desert. After dinner we made funny faces around the table. Then the boys did some break dancing for us. Then Nicole showed Grandma and Grandpa some Phineas and Ferb on You Tube. They had never seen them before. I filled a memory stick of photos for them to take home. Now everyone is in bed. I'll go to bed too when Jessica lets me. And who knows what gifts await us? This visit was a gift. I thank God for this good gift!