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trying to prepare to say goodbye

Juergen's mom is getting very weak. She sleeps almost all day. It is getting very hard to feed her. The harder more important thing is she is not drinking enough. Without enough to drink, her kidneys may fail. We have been told by the Dr's that something like this will kill her before the tumors in her brain do. Between the tears, we need to think concretely about what we will do when she dies. This isn't easy. It seems cold. But we are a big family. Juergen's dad will need him (alone without the kids). So now Juergen must think about when to go, and what to do to arrange stuff. He needs to do this so that his dad doesn't have to. I hope our friends will pray for us. It's so odd to sit down with our children and try to prepare them for what is about to take place. I don't think it is anything they can grasp. I don't think they will understand until it happens and we are crying. Even then I am not sure they could understand. Death is part of life...but death is not the end.

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Julie said…
Amy -- My heart and prayers are with your family during this difficult time.
Cindy said…
Amy, I'm praying for strength and peace for your whole family right now.
God bles you as you go through this difficult time.
Cindy

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