It's almost 2:30am. Sarah woke up with a nightmare. I guess that was to be expected. When I went to comfort her she looked at me in fear and screamed for Juergen. It was the same fear she had in Shanghai. I haven't thank God seen it for awhile. I know she will not hate me tomorrow and I have got to find the courage to let this rejection fall off of me. I will try not to panic about our up coming trip to the USA when papa will not be there to comfort her. It takes courage to look into the eyes of your child when they hate you. Courage to wait and build for a future when they can no longer remember the fear. I will probably never forget the pain of this rejection...but it only plays a small role ,totally dominated by the love.
My niece had a beautiful baby girl named Olivia Rose (Beautiful name). Everyone is very excited and thank God healthy! Congratulations to the whole family! Hugs to my sister Shelley who is now a proud grandma for the 2nd time. My sister Dianna has 6 grand kids (I think). My brother and I are too young for such an blessing. At least our kids are too young. I'm going to have to wait to be called grandma. Here is a cool picture I took off Shelley's blog. It shows Eric (the tired but proud grandpa) Lissa with her first daughter Charlotte, and then a sleeping Olivia Rose. 3 generations in one shot. How fast life goes by! How beautiful life can be!
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