It's almost 2:30am. Sarah woke up with a nightmare. I guess that was to be expected. When I went to comfort her she looked at me in fear and screamed for Juergen. It was the same fear she had in Shanghai. I haven't thank God seen it for awhile. I know she will not hate me tomorrow and I have got to find the courage to let this rejection fall off of me. I will try not to panic about our up coming trip to the USA when papa will not be there to comfort her. It takes courage to look into the eyes of your child when they hate you. Courage to wait and build for a future when they can no longer remember the fear. I will probably never forget the pain of this rejection...but it only plays a small role ,totally dominated by the love.
Why not start with an IBC and cut a hole for the door? You could build closed laying boxes into it, and something for the chickens to roost on. Put some straw or saw dust on the floor. You could add vents to the side for air. If it sat inside a chicken run that you can walk into, the chickens could be safe, dry and happy. I have an extra IBC. Maybe this could be my chicken house? I bet I could even plant the outside of it with mud and grass for extra insulation and good looks.
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