Day 17

I'm actually posting this a day early. God willing I will be driving 5 hours North to Juergen's parents house. I hope to spend the weekend with His parents. I know that if God doesn't heal my mother in law(MIL) this will probably be my goodbye visit. I guess courage is what I need to make this visit. I have no real word from God about Waltrud. I'm really praying to hear Gods word on this subject. I keep praying for her to be healed. I know most everyone else is just trying to prepare themselves for her death. I will accept that if I really know it's the will of God. Until the time he gives me the peace to stop praying...I'm just going to keep praying. It's very true we all must die, and sickness is a very big part of this fallen world (believe me I understand this...my first born child has autism). Still, what is even more true to me is the goodness of God, and his very real power to heal. Even if I do not see his power to heal, I believe it is real. I don't know if God will exercise his healing in Waltruds life, but I can ask. I don't get any indication from God that he wants me to stop asking...so I will keep asking.
As far as thanks, I remember the first time I met Juergens mom. It was just before Juergen and I became engaged. I was so nervous I could hardly talk. I wanted her to like me, and accept me. I loved her son so deeply. She was so wonderful. She did everything she could to make me feel welcome. She also told Juergen very soon that I was "the one". Thanks is not a strong enough word to express how gratful I am for my Mother in Law. I am so thankful for her...and very thankful for the chance I have to hold her hand and kiss her cheek and tell her to her face how much I love her! Please pray for me. I need the prayer.