The Heymann Family Journal

She made me feel so good!

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 20:46:00 +0000

A friend of mine has been spending time looking at houses on the internet for me. Today she called and told me about a house that's for sale in her area. That tells me she wants us to live near her...and I feel so loved! Knowone else is looking for houses for us (that I know of). The house she found looks way too small, but the yard has 7,500 m2. Let me see, that's almost 2 acers (unheard of space for Germany). I must see this mini farm. It has a winter garden and a barn. Maybe we could make it work. And if we get it, I'm going to grow every kind of fruit tree, and keep chickens and goats. I want to be a farmer!

Looking for the best fit

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 11:07:00 +0000

One thing I like about my husband is he lets me look for what is best. I want impossible and complicated stuff. It would be so easy to just say "Amy don't make waves". Our house is fine, and it is so much trouble to look for a better fit. I agree...but! I do not want to change the direction of our lives, I just want a bigger house (we moved in to our house with 3 kids and now we have 5). But more then the big house, I want the big yard. I want to grow my own food. I can not do this in my small yard. Juergen was just nominated to be an elder in our church. I'm proud of him. I know that if he is approved as an elder (the vote is next spring) he will do a great job. I'll try not to get him into too much trouble. I'm not looking at moving away. But Heidelberg is so expensive. A yard comes with a pretty big price tag. I found 2 more houses to look at. The one I like best is a 1978 house (I don't care for the style but it doesn't require massive renovation). In a perfect world I could afford a 200 year old house in down town Heidelberg with a extra big yard...and zero renovation. It is not going to happen! We don't have the time for an extreme home makeover (or the money). But this big house is not far from Heidelberg, it has a big yard and a view. I love the view! I asked to have the expose sent to me, and maybe I'll see the house next week. I feel like Nicole...don't be afraid to look for the best fit! I think it's important that my local friends know I don't want to move away from my life...I just want to have the resources to live my life fully. I’m not afraid…if God’s in it he will not hide his will. But I feel like a women that’s wearing size 10 jeans when she should be wearing size 14 jeans. I feel squeezed into my house. I’m getting rid of all kinds of stuff. I throw things away almost daily. But no matter how much I throw away the bottom line is my house is too small and I am holding my breath. We are 7 people with one bathroom. I can only grow a good salad in my garden, and I want more! I am sure I could be content with the small house but I feel pretty strongly about the need to grow my own food. So anyway, I am looking. I’m so glad Juergen is cool with that. Gods best has to do with all the rest. My “all the rest” is just so much more complicated then your average person. I know I will not find what I’m looking for…I need God to lead me there.

Ketchup is a helper

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 08:17:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 22:56:00 +0000

Juergen is nominated as an elder in our church. He shared about himself tonight and took questions. I asked him about his stance on women in ministry (believe it or not a controversy in our church). I know it was not the time or place for that topic, I just wanted to see how diplomatic he could be. He's great! He has my vote.

The look

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 16:40:00 +0000

Juergen and I took a look at a disabled workshop Jessica has been trying for the last 2 weeks. I thought the place was very well run. It was clean, friendly and very organized. The people help pack stuff (like small car parts). Jess hated it. She cried every day. We will just keep looking. They said she could stay one more year in school. I’m trusting we have that extra time to find the perfect place for her. I’m very impressed by the lovely people who spend their life caring for the disabled. They give them a job, and dignity.

Nicole is at the University with Juergen. I'm anxious to see how it goes. They have exchange programs for their students. One of the places she could go for her Masters degree is Thailand. They have a Masters degree in sustainable environments. Very cool! You do 2 semesters in Thailand and one semester in Germany. It only takes 3 years to get a bachelors degree…could be a plan!

Up date...
Juergen loved the school. Nicole liked it too but feels really confused about what she wants to do (a very big choice). I think she should just keep weighing her options...keep looking. She can choose this, but maybe it will be something else that she feels called to. She has 1 1/2 years before she graduates, and even then she does not need to know. The important thing now is information. Look, Look and Look. Line all that good information up and pray. At some point she will just know what is right. Knowledge is power. And Nicole, I know you read my blog…I am proud of you, and I’ll be just as proud of you if you draw pictures for veggie tales, or save Africa from starvation...or just stay home and raise great kids (just?). One may seem more important then the other, but the most important thing is doing what God wants…I love you! You have always been wise, and I know you will be wise now.

a friend sent me the 365 names of God...thank you Elke!

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 23:26:00 +0000

I Am
365 Names, Characteristics and Attributes of God

GOD OF WONDERS
I AM the GOD who shows wonders
I AM the Lord and my voice is powerful and full of majesty
I AM GOD- nothing is too hard for me
I AM GOD who made all MY wonderful works to be remembered
I AM GOD and my Glory thunders
I AM the Spirit of knowledge and understanding…
I AM the Holy Spirit that moved upon the deep
I AM worthy of worship, glorious and incomparable
I AM GOD who makes himself known through visions
I AM dynamis power
I AM the giver of all revelation
I AM glorious and full of weighty splendour
I AM HE- that ascended to the Father
I AM the triune GOD of Israel
I AM GOD who performs signs
I AM GOD who speaks in night seasons
I AM the King of Glory
I AM HE who searches the mind and heart
I AM great and greatly to be praised
I AM YAH and Yahweh
I AM the creator of all true worship
I AM wisdom
I AM omniscient
I AM the Lord who stretches out the heavens
I AM GOD who speaks
I AM Jehovah Rava, your healer
I AM GOD who declares new things before they spring forth
I AM the answer of your tongue
I AM prophecy fulfilled- never early- never late
I AM GOD who gives you dreams
I AM above all who were thought to be Gods

GOD OF SYMBOLS
I AM found in my appointed feasts
I AM the anointing oil
I AM the bright cloud that comes to you
I AM the Synagogue, Church, Tabernacle and Temple
I AM the living water of life
I AM the Shofar trumpet
I AM the fountain of Israel
I AM Israel’s living star
I AM the Passover
I AM the Ark of the Covenant
I AM the door
I AM the altar of the Tabernacle
I AM the bomb of Gilead
I AM the Rose of Sharon
I AM the tree of life
I AM the GOD of Bethel
I AM the Lily of the Valley
I AM GOD who…or assigned between you and ME
I AM the rainbow’s colour
I AM the rock, there is no other
I AM the Glory and the cloud of the Temple
I AM the bread of life
I AM your rock- full of living water
I AM the light of the world
I AM a consuming fire
I AM the North, your promoter
I AM the bright and morning star
I AM the light, luminous, glowing and radiant one

GOD OF MERCY
I AM GOD who is merciful
I AM favour and I grant favour to whom I choose
I AM GOD of the…
I AM the prince of peace prophesied by the prophet Isaiah
I AM GOD who restores your soul
I AM the friend of sinners
I AM GOD- I tempt no one
I AM the GOD of peace
I AM HE who weeps with those who weep
I AM HE who speaks from a position of mercy
I AM longsuffering
I AM my Spirit
I AM gracious
I AM the forgiver of all transgressions
I AM the Manna which came down from heaven
I AM the breath that gives you life
I AM HE who will not remember your sins
I AM the beloved in the Song of Songs
I AM GOD who stretches out his hand
I AM the liberty you see through my Spirit
I AM ever faithful
I AM GOD in the midst of your land
I AM the forgiver of inequity
I AM abundant in mercy
I AM the altar of peace for your fear
I AM the Lord who makes wise the simple
I AM GOD who is daily full of new mercy
I AM GOD who comforts you
I AM GOD of the poor and stranger
I AM gentle and lowly in heart
I AM GOD who exercises love and kindness

GOD OF SACRIFICE
I AM the Christ
I AM the cup of the blood
I AM the eternal sacrifice
I AM the blood that cleanses you from sin
I AM the crucified Messiah of Calvary
I AM your righteousness
I AM the Yom Kippur offering to expediate all sins
I AM worthy to open and read the scroll
I AM Noah’s Arch in a world still filled with sin
I AM the wine and the bread
I AM alive forever more
I AM the sprinkled blood of the lamb on the door-post of Israel
I AM the door to the Father
I AM the Lord who rescues those with a contrite spirit
I AM GOD’s Son sent to be seen face to face
I AM He that left heaven for you
I AM your sanctification
I AM the blood that tumbled
I AM GOD’s only Son
I AM eternally blind to what I’ve forgiven
I AM the bread of life broken for you
I AM HE who blots out your transgressions
I AM supplication
I AM the pierced Messiah
I AM the keeper of the keys to Hades and death
I AM the GOD of your salvation
I AM the Lamb that was slain
I AM the Father, Son and Holy Spirit
I AM outside the camp- come to ME
I AM the way, the truth and the life

GOD OF JUSTICE
I AM the righteous judge of all creation
I AM the King of Kings
I AM with the generation of the righteous
I AM GOD- My statute rejoice the heart
I AM the ONE who makes unbreakable covenants with men
I AM Holy, Pure and Undefiled
I AM GOD: beside to ME there is no God
I AM GOD by which all actions are weighted
I AM GOD- My testimony is sure
I AM GOD-My commandments enlightened the eyes
I AM the witness on your behalf
I AM righteous- kings humble themselves before ME
I AM GOD whose eyelids test the sons of men
I AM the Spirit of wisdom
I AM my ordinances
I AM the divine judge of all things
I AM the law
I AM MY statute- walk in them
I AM judge of the living and the dead
I AM the Spirit of the fear of the Lord
I AM righteous
I AM perfect knowledge
I AM before whom every tongue will confess
I AM the Lord who loves righteousness
I AM the unbiased impartial judge
I AM the Lord and my judgements are righteous altogether
I AM HE who sent Moses to deliver Israel
I AM GOD and no one can reverse MY axe
I AM to be feared above all Gods
I AM GOD who refines you
I AM MY judgements
I AM the Lord who heals you

GOD OF PROMISE
I AM returning
I AM GOD and I want you to believe in ME
I AM HE who places your tears in MY bottle, in MY book
I AM GOD who shows you things to come
I AM the seven Spirits and they are ME
I AM the Lord- the fear of ME is a fountain of life
I AM GOD- MY secrets are with those who fear me
I AM life’s guarantor of joy and help
I AM GOD who will be found by those, who seek ME with all their heart & soul
I AM and you shall know MY names
I AM He who leads you in the paths of righteousness
I AM the architect of the last days
I AM the soul key giver of heaven
I AM the GOD who hears
I AM the Lord who hears those who speak about MY Name
I AM GOD who leads you to prophecy
I AM the soon coming king
I AM the Lord I do not change
I AM always with you- wherever you are
I AM GOD who speaks through dreams
I AM GOD who reveals HIS form
I AM the healing you seek
I AM the Saviour who would descent on the Mount of Olives
I AM GOD who gives you visions
I AM GOD of those who are growing old
I AM coming quickly
I AM the ONE coming on the white horse
I AM the soon rending of the heavens
I AM the precision of MY scripture
I AM waiting for you

GOD THE SHEPHERD
I AM your shepherd, you shall not want
I AM the rod that chastises and brings you comfort
I AM in the desert wilderness to be tender with you
I AM near to those who have a broken heart
I AM your confidence
I AM compassion
I AM in the Father
I AM with you and will keep you wherever you go
I AM the refuge of the poor
I AM your Father
I AM GOD in the stillness
I AM the Lord- he who is joined with ME is one spirit with ME
I AM the Spirit of counsel
I AM your provider
I AM tenderness
I AM the true shepherd
I AM the dispeller of all fear and doubt
I AM interceding for you right now
I AM love
I AM the stab that retrieves you
I AM man’s friend who sticks closer than a brother
I AM the shepherd rod
I AM GOD who is with you in the valley of the shadow and death
I AM there with you
I AM GOD who strengthens you
I AM the candle lighting your path
I AM the Lord; precious in MY sight is the depth of all my sense
I AM the counsellor, mighty GOD, everlasting Father
I AM your peace and calm
I AM HE who wipes away your tears
I AM the saving refuge of MY anointed

GOD THE ANCIENT ONE
I Am the Lord GOD of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob
I AM the Holy Spirit who hovered over the chaos of this earth
I AM the light of Genesis that was before light was
I AM the sacred Shmah of the ancients
I AM the Holy ONE of Israel
I AM the One whose ways are perfect
I AM God- the fear of ME is clean enduring forever
I AM the Holy of the Holies
I AM the GOD of knowledge
I AM the Lord sitting on HIS throne
I AM GOD who formed the earth to be inhabited
I AM understanding
I AM GOD who was joined to the unique
I AM the GOD of all the holy prophets in scripture
I AM GOD who divided the sea
I AM the Lord of the dance
I AM the Lord
I AM the guiding star at JESUS’ birth
I AM GOD who turned water into wine
I AM HE of whom all the prophets were told
I AM the root of the offspring of David
I AM GOD who leads you into all truth
I AM GOD whose rainbow’s MY everlasting covenant with you
I AM the root of Jesse
I AM the GOD of Jerusalem wherein is MY Name
I AM the creator of Israel
I AM the GOD who divided the waters
I AM the fountain of the house of David
I AM GOD who shuts up the heavens
I AM GOD who turned water into blood
I AM married to Israel

GOD THE REWARDING
I AM your exceedingly great reward
I AM the Lord- taste and see that I AM GOOD
I AM both: the giver and the gifts
I AM the preparer of your place in heaven
I AM able to give you much more than this
I AM the one source of all true wealth
I AM the spirit of liberty
I AM HE who anoints your head with oil
I AM the bridegroom returning for MY bride
I AM the Lord who looks on those who tremble at MY word
I AM GOD who prepares a table for you in the presence of your enemies
I AM in the midst of two or three gathered in MY Name
I AM GOD who will answer you
I AM the glory who conceals a matter for a king to search out
I AM the fountain of gardens
I AM the resurrection of MY beloved
I AM GOD- whose throne is in heaven
I AM from above
I AM the Lord whose countenance beholds the upright
I AM the just reward of all who seek ME
I AM GOD who teaches you to prophet
I AM the giver of abound life
I AM more than you can ask or think
I AM sitting at the right hand of the Father
I AM the maker of many….therein
I AM the Sabbath rest
I AM the inheritance of the Levi
I AM the fountain of life
I AM the giver of great wisdom
I AM the Holy Spirit that hovers over your life to bring higher order

GOD THE WARRIOR
I AM the battle standard
I AM your sharp two-edge sword
I AM your battle cry
I AM a warrior and MY kingdom is spread by force
I AM the Lord mighty in battle
I AM the one who annialates Satan’s plans
I AM the spirit of might
I AM the master planner of all nations and kingdoms
I AM HE who leads you for MY great Name’s sake
I AM the conqueror of death, hell and the grave
I AM both: warrior and poet
I AM the supreme GOD, deliverer and possessor
I AM the Lord of hosts
I AM the kingdom, the power and the glory
I AM GOD who cast out nations before you
I AM commander and chief of all heavens armies
I AM HE who drives out the wicked before you
I AM the defender of those who believe in ME
I AM your strength
I AM the lamb sitting on the throne
I AM your victorious banner
I AM the fullness of greatness, power, glory, victory, and majesty
I AM GOD almighty and infinite in strength
I AM your mighty shield
I AM the lion of the tribe of Judah
I AM the sword of the Spirit
I AM your high tower
I AM the defender of Israel
I AM your fortress
I AM omnipotent
I AM the enemy of the enemies of Israel

GOD OF ETERNITY
I AM I never change
I AM the first and the last
I AM one
I AM meant the builder of faith through the ages
I AM the ruler of both: the night and the day
I AM the uncaused eternal self-existent wonder
I AM king forever and ever
I AM Spirit
I AM the Alpha and the Omega
I AM GOD whose eyes behold
I AM the same every day
I AM the word of life called the Bible
I AM the cornerstone
I AM the resurrection and the life
I AM not of this world
I AM GOD who knows all MY works through eternity
I AM omnipresent
I AM the One who simultaneously sees to beginning and end
I AM GOD ready to perform MY word through eternity
I AM three in one- equal and eternal
I AM before the day was
I AM all MY Names
I AM the self-sufficient, self-sustaining, self-creating One
I AM GOD, there is no other
I AM the word which was in the beginning
I AM the rock of ages on which you stand
I AM HE who was, is, and is to come
I AM who I AM
I AM the everlasting GOD
I AM HE who inhabits eternity

GOD OF EVERY CREATURE
I AM the Lord- the fear of ME is the beginning of wisdom
I AM the GOD of multiplication and reproduction
I AM Jehovah- that is MY Name
I AM the GOD of the Seraphim
I AM the GOD of all flesh
I AM the vine
I AM the artist that all artisans draw from
I AM Adonai Elohenu- there is none other
I AM the GOD of the Cherubim
I AM the foundation of the world
I AM invisible: yet all creation speaks of ME
I AM GOD- I want you to understand and know ME
I AM and you are MY witnesses
I AM glorified in you
I AM GOD who made you a sign to the unbeliever
I AM more than all structures of steel, water and clay
I AM jealous over you
I AM the exalted head over all
I AM GOD who is drawn to the foreigner
I AM GOD who speaks face to face
I AM the sovereign ruler of all creation
I AM your next breath
I AM the light of the world
I AM GOD and all that is in heaven and in earth is MINE
I AM Immanuel- GOD dwelling among men
I AM high and lifted up by all creation
I AM the outpoured Spirit on all flesh
I AM HE who rejoices with those who rejoice
I AM the only Creator of the all that exists
I AM saviour of both: the gentiles and the Jews
I AM HE before whom every knee will bow

So Holy

HOLY HOLY HOLY, HOLY HOLY HOLY, HOLY HOLY HOLY
HOLY LORD GOD ALMIGHTY
HOLY HOLY HOLY, HOLY HOLY HOLY, HOLY HOLY HOLY
HOLY LORD GOD ALMIGHTY
ALL PRESENT, ALL KNOWING ALL POWERFUL
ALL HONOUR ALL GLORY TO THE GREAT I AM
HOLY HOLY HOLY, HOLY HOLY HOLY, HOLY HOLY HOLY
HOLY LORD GOD ALMIGHTY

University

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 16:54:00 +0000

Tomorrow Juergen is taking the day off to visit the University of Hohenheim. This is a 200 year old Agricultural Science school near Stuttgart (just an hour south of us). University is almost free in Germany. In fact, because we have 5 kids I think it is free (all the way through a PhD). Hohenheim is the best University in Germany for Agricultural Science. It is also a very family friendly school. If Nicole gets married and has kids, the University does provide good services to support her and her family so she can continue to study. She is still very interested in studying in America. She has not decided if she wants to be an artist, or a plant scientist. Juergen and I want her near us...but we will support her either way. I must admit I'm glad Juergen could take the day off to take her. All the kids in her class get tomorrow off to look at schools. She was going to look at an art school in Stuttgart (taking the train) but it wasn't anything she was excited about. I called Juergen and asked him if he couldn't take her to this school in Hohenhiem instead. I'm sure my parents will not be happy if she decides to stay in Germany, but I'm sure they can understand why I'm not anxious to let go of my girl so soon. I’m sure she will find a good way for herself. I hope it’s near home…but either way I’m sure it will be very good.

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 14:47:00 +0000

UN food summit

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 10:34:00 +0000

I noticed there is an UN food summit in Rome this week. They are already saying they don’t expect much progress (sad). There is a world wide food crises. It is only expected to be made worse by a growing population. The population is expected to grow another 2 billion by 2050 (only 40 years away). I am always watching trends in poverty. Millions of children become orphans because of poverty. Child labor, and prostitution is driven by poverty. Birth parents are not generally cruel when they abandon their children, they are desperate and starving. I am also lobbying Juergen to buy me a farm house with a big garden. I want to be able to grow my own food. I think every grassy place in America could be pulled up and replaced with an organic vegetable garden. Imagine the impact we could have on this world if we could teach the poor to grow their own food? The answer is not to give a fish, it is to teach them to fish (or garden). But we do not know how to feed our selves. When hunger comes we are as dependent as everyone else. Already 17 million Americans struggle with hunger. How can this be? Good land lays empty, un used while children are hungry. How can we be so backwards? Americans feed their cars grain while children around the world starve. How can we be so backwards?

I am

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 22:55:00 +0000

I'm listening to a worship CD called I Am, 365 names of God by John Paul Jackson. I got it on I tunes as a down load. It's just music, and the names of God . Very cool. He just read "I am comming quickly"!

working on our Christmas card

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 15:13:00 +0000

Glen Beck talks to black conservatives...very good...worth a look

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 14:48:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:38:00 +0000

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

we got the right man...

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:16:00 +0000

Mexican pumpkin soup

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 12:54:00 +0000

I made a Mexican pumpkin soup today. I used a butternut squash, 2 onions, 6 potato’s, non dairy cream, a little vegetable bullion and 2 table spoons taco spices. Oh and a can of pinto beans. It was great, and will be even better tomorrow! I just made it up myself. I don’t generally use recipes.

you chop the veggies together, boil them in lots of water, mash them with a hand mixer and then add the beans, and other stuff. It makes a warm and filling soup. It is totally vegetarian. I was tired of pumpkin soup with curry.

Cheap and Easy Worm Bin!

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:36:00 +0000

HERE is how to build your own Cheap and Easy Worm Bin!

Worms LOVE
Breads & Grains
Cereal
Coffee grounds & filter
Fruits
Tea bags
Vegetables

Worms HATE
Dairy Products
Fats
Meat
Feces
Oils

easy raised beds

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:28:00 +0000

I saw this cool idea. You take a heavy plastic and put it together in almost any form to make a raised garden bed. Add polls on the corners to make it stable. That's it!

getting my garden ready for winter

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 14:43:00 +0000

I have raised garden beds. I clean the beds out, putting the old plants in my compost pile. I could just leave the beds until spring, but I want to do more. I decided to buy some horse and chicken manure on eBay. They send it in large 5 kilo plastic buckets and it only cost 1 Euro, + 4 Euro for postage. I will spread the manure over my beds, add a thin layer of leaves, and maybe even some torn up news paper. Then I will place a black plastic tarp over the bed, with some holes in it for water to get in. I'll let this compost over winter. In the spring I'll mix the compost into my soil and hopefully be ready to plant. Horse manure is good because it has allot of straw in it. Chicken manure is pretty strong (I’ve read). I don’t want to over use it. Never put manure directly on plants because it will burn them. I’m hoping the combination of manure, leaves, and newspaper will attract worms to my raised beds. Worms break up soil, and worm castings make the best plant food. Anyway, this is the plan. I ordered the manure today. Sometime next week (God willing) I should be able to get my small garden ready for winter. The black plastic warms the soil, and I may even get to plant early next spring. It also keeps weed seeds from growing. I only know this from books...I'm trying this for the first time. I'll let you know if it works!

a worm tower...cool idea

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 13:58:00 +0000

all things are possible

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 07:47:00 +0000

I remember the time well. I sat glued to my TV. I lived in San Diego. I had spent the summer in Germany and we never thought it possible. Never! But the wall fell! And 3 days before Juergen and I were married Germany became united. I cry looking at this video. I remember praying for this. It still amazes me. Jessica’s kindergarten teacher was one of the people who left everything to sneak out of East Germany. She left her children and family…everything. She went to Cuba on a vacation. Instead of returning home, she went to Florida and asked for asylum. She lost everything for freedom. I’m so glad Germany is now whole, and Germans are now free.

orphan sunday

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 20:32:00 +0000

Every Sunday is orphan Sunday at our house. And every Sunday is good! If you open your heart to orphans you will be changed forever. I always say, some people hope their life counts, I know my life does. I have changed the whole world because I been blessed by adoption.

better

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 10:15:00 +0000

Yesterday when we got the note from the Dr saying they mis read Philips MRI, and that he still has a tumor I was sad, but more angry. Anyone can make a mistake, but you shouldn't read about it 3 months later in a note. They should tell you in person, don't you think? To be honest, I was happy but confused when they told Juergen the tumor was gone. I felt numb, not over joyed. Back in March I wrote this on my face book,

"Last night I was watching TV. Out of the blue (because I was not thinking about Philip) I physically felt like someone was pulling a cotton ball sized white tumor from my left nostril. I felt it only on the left side of my nose. It was so weird because I really felt it. Then I thought immediately that Philip has a tumor the size of a small cotton ball near his pituitary gland, and they will pull it out of the left side of his nose. I guess we will see if this was a word from God? "

I'm not worried about Philip. I'm sad the tumor is still there, I'm angry the Dr did not tell us to our faces, but I am pretty sure it will be OK.

mixed

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 21:24:00 +0000

We went to see an old farm house that's for sale. It needs too much work. We will check with the heaters guys, the plumbers etc... but I think it's too much for us (too much time and too much money). I enjoyed looking. I'm happy Juergen is open to the idea of a move. If you are our local friend, don't worry. We are only looking at places that would allow us to basically keep our lives. We want to go to the same church and keep most (not all) of our kids in the same schools. I made a slide show of the old house. I love the garden. But I'm 95% sure we will not buy this one.

I learned one of my nieces is expecting a baby, and another niece just lost her baby. I'm so happy for the one, and very sad for the other. How very sad! Both my sisters have lost grandchildren. This breaks my heart. I cried for you...and I am so sorry for your loss.

We just got a report from Philips Dr today. They had told us his tumor was gone. Well, it's not gone. It is still there. I guess they just read the MRI wrong. So we have to check it again. The big problem is we got braces put on his teeth. It's been a mixed news kind of day. I still believe it's an easy tumor to remove. It's on his pituitary gland (Hypophyse). I'm sorry it's still there but I'm going to hold on to the peace God gives.

abortion is in the bill

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 17:33:00 +0000

Feeling stupid

noreply@blogger.com (Amy) — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 20:24:00 +0000

I’ve lived in Germany for 14 years but my German is not really very good. My Uncle use to call me dumb because my language was so delayed in English. I couldn’t speak very well at the age of four years. I know I’m not dumb…at least in English. This week I had to speak extensively with a teacher, a doctor, a pastor, a speech therapist and a lawyer . I can understand maybe 85 % of what is said in normal conversation, but with the lawyer I could only comprehend 10% of what he said. We are trying to gain permeate custody of Jessica our 18 year old autistic daughter. I had to ask Juergen what the man said. He gave me a lecture on needing to learn German. Thank you Juergen. I try, but it does not come easy to me. I cried today because I felt so tired and so stupid. Sometimes raising 5 kids with special needs can just wear you out. Jessica has been home all week because her teacher is sick. I’m very tired, very tired! But added to that is how small I feel when I have to do it all in German. Maybe it would be just as hard in America? At least I wouldn’t feel so intimidated. Germans can make you feel so small.